I am a mess-never done thid b4

[Runner]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Hey Cindi-
Thats my plan,to have a few, but I know it wont go over well with some of the fam. It really sucks that after boozing hard for so many years,I still lie about my drinking.This is just one small reason why I need to get my act together .

[Cinders]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Runner,

I have been there. I have a brother that drinks one glass of wine a night for his health.

The last time I stayed with him was sheer hell. I drank one glass a night for three whole nights. (woke up with sweats and shakes, yikes!!)

However, he never knew I was withdrawing because that one glass helped.

You can do it.

Then, when you get back home, figure out how to go AF. WHATEVER IT TAKES!!

I am not kidding about that. You are putting on a show for family but the reality is you MUST find a way to recover. NO MATTER WHAT.

I am just offering you a way to "save face" for now but knowing that you must find a way to help yourself in the real future.

Love,
Cindi

And then next time, you can abstain and let the rest drink whatever the hell they want.

[Runner]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Cindi-
Family is tuff,how long you been AF? last time I was 3 Mo strait and ripped everyones heads off,funny how what you said baout the sweats, I thought I was the only one! Totaly soak everything and then freeze!

[Cinders]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Runner,

I went into rehab in Nov sometime.

I refuse to count days. My brain really freaks if I screw up so I figure, don't count, just keep going one day at a time.

I have lots of AF behind me now (for me!!) and hope to have a year or so behind me next Christmas.

What matters is keeping your eyes on the prize. No more drinking. (in my case drinking turns into blackout every single time, no mods here)

Just keep your eyes on your goal, whatever it may be.

You can do it, so can I.
Cindi

[Runner]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Thanks!!!!!! you got guts goin to rehab,I probably need to but I,m the boss and if I go away.....just Imagine.

Keep in touch,Skynards cool!

[sammys]

I am a mess-never done thid b4

Hi your here and that is what matters, check in alot and we are here for you.


Sammys