Clearly i have developed a problem with alcohol over the last 7 years and i want to stop drinking.
I began binge drinking when i was 18, on average once a week. I used to hate the morning after, having found out that i inevitably acted like a complete wanker the night before.
I continued on to university where i began drinking habitually. Yes it was part of the lifestyle, but unlike the majority of other students, i would have a real jeckyl and hide reaction when binge drinking. I have been truly horrible to people i love while drinking, losing friends and destroying a relationship with a then girlfriend because of the horrendous spiteful things i would say when i was pissed.
I finished university and after a few years got my dream job. I am a member of the emergency services. This job is for the real me, the person i know i am. I get to help people and i love doing it.
I dont drink regulary, but there is a huge social side to my line of work. I binge drink when i go out, i cant lie about it. Again i have often had the whole jeckyl and hyde syndrome. Fortunately my colleagues just laugh of it but i hate the way i behave. Ultimately i always take it to far.
i do occasionally have a few drinks with mates at the local or at friends houses, and im fine providing i dont take it to far. however more often than not i take it to far.
The time has come. Im 25, just got a mortage and want to progress well in my line of work. However my binge drinking will be a barrier to me meeting a new girlfriend, keeping my friends and progressing with my life. who knows when my drinking habit may lead to me being disciplined at work for my behaviour outside of work.
Thanky you for reading this and all advice on combating my drinking habit will be warmly welcomed. I hope that in time i can give advice back and help others.
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