Well... I was doing okay for three days and then last night...

[Shikakai]

Well... I was doing okay for three days and then last night...

dexterhead;243159 wrote: Shikakai: I hear you ... have been there. Please stick around with us. Have you ever been on antidepressants? I suffered from depression for years ... finally got meds and it really saved me. Please see a doctor to help you thru this.
thinking of you ....

Thank you, Dexter... I've known for quite some time that I need professional help... I'm just scared, though...

My mom called me this morning to check on me... I just can't believe what she would go through if I wasn't here anymore

She's the only reason I am still here.

Will think about going to the doctor.

[dexterhead]

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S., PLEASE do ... Yes, I went through a terrible period where I could see no reason for continuing, in which my whole life blew up in multiple ways, and some old friends abandoned me (divorce is icky and maybe contagious, I guess?) . The only thing that got me through was my mom and the thought of how it would shatter my family. Please keep thinking of your mom and we will keep thinking of you :l

[fjones]

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Shikakai, I felt as you do 9 days ago. I had gone on such a bender that I too was suicidal. You may want to talk to an emergency line about this. I haven't drank for 9 days and whilst I still feel very down those thoughts have left me. The alcohol has a dreadful effect on our thinking and spirals us ever downward into deep depression. Well done on reaching out for help and keep sharing - you can do this.

[Suki411]

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S, glad you are posting here. I've only been here a little over a month, and have gone 15 days af (not all in a row). But it made me realize that my depression was a direct result of my drinking. They feed off on another. After going 7 days AF, taking the supps, which I think are very important, eating well (I'm addicted to quinoa, which has plenty of amino acids, and the most perfect protein), I felt like a million bucks.Then I slipped. I used to think badly of myself when I did.

One word of advice, don't beat yourself up, don't use negative words, don't say "stupid me". Negative words or feelings take up too much energy, and con tinue the cycle.

Life is a process. Every experience will teach you something about yourself and make you stronger.

You are among people who have experienced, who are experiencing what you are going through. Go along for the ride. Read, post, take advantage of everyone's experience, support, guidance.

As Satori said, you do have the strength, whether day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. We are all here for you.

It does become easier.

I lost my mom about 2 years ago. Devastating. You are blessed that you have your mom and she is so concerned for you.

Keep in touch with all of us, hon. We are here for you.

Suki xx

[Long Road]

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Stay together

Dear Shikakai,

You aren't alone. I blew it yesterday after a long time AF, but even as I was drinking I could read and talk to people from all over the world here.

U R not Alone!


The entire world is here 2 help U --- 24/7.

Read and post; it helps.

LR

[Victory]

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Why do we hurt ourselves? Fu*ked if I know

Dear One,
One day at a time [ODAT], and don?t give in..... Please......
Look life can be a total shit and drinking makes it worse. Looking back often-wonder if the booze thing is total insanity!!!! Not sure why we keep hurting ourselves?.. Quite a mad thing to do. Don?t have the answers, don?t know how to make you feel better but being AF is the best starting place I know.
Hang around lady it does get better
Kind regards
Victory

[Suki411]

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S, listen to all the wise friends here. It is a difficult process, but you can to it. It takes time, but you can do it.

[fjones]

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S How are you, I am almost at the end of Day 2 and have struggled a lot today. More than once I had massive cravings but day 3 tomorrow will be easier. Let us know how you are.

[Shikakai]

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fjones;244260 wrote: S How are you, I am almost at the end of Day 2 and have struggled a lot today. More than once I had massive cravings but day 3 tomorrow will be easier. Let us know how you are.

Drunk as a skunk last night... and the night before... and the night before

I never did "recover" from the day I told you all I just to have a drink to go to work and survive ONE day and began anew the following day.

Well, that day is still somewhere in the future. Maybe it's today, though, since I don't plan on drinking anything but WATER!

I had been meaning to come in here and check-in. Too busy boozing.

I really appreciate all of your support

Suki, I know my depression is directly LINKED to alcohol. It's after so many drinks, I just go into this spell.

Again, last night, I was wishing I had a gun... I have got to stop drinking, some how some way.

I destroyed the DVD/VCR player last night in a fit of rage. I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

Well, Merry Christmas, everyone. I hope God is being good to you all

[Suki411]

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S, thinking of you. I know my depression is definitely linked to my drinking, as the last 3 days are telling me. Drank and stayed in bed.

We can do it, kick AL in the butt. Did 7, 3, 5 days AF and felt incredible. Then the holidays hit.

Drinking isn't worth it. AF is such a gift. I plan to give myself that gift.

NOW. I NEED IT NOW.

My best to you, S.


Suki xxxxxxx

[rudemama]

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To all of you here, I am trying too. I am not drinking today. I will be awake and aware for my kids today. Rudemama Thanks for being here.

[Cinders]

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Rudemama,

We are here for you. Be awake and aware for your kids.

Strength to you.
Love,
Cindi

[rudemama]

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Thanks Cindy.:h Rudemama

[jettagirl]

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Shikakai,

It's understandable that you feel the way you do. Yes, it is very hard work to stop the insanity. Please remember that you are a person worthy of being alive and healthy. This is YOU we are talking about. A human being who deserves to live this life. Try to see yourself as a person to love. Treat yourself as a precious gift which IS who and what you are.

We all go into a spell when we drink, mine is more of a nothingness. Try to understand you CAN conquer this. You are worthy for the efforts it takes. People care about you. Please care about yourself.

I wish you the best.

[me145]

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Hey.. I know how you feel. ive had a few terrible and embarassing nights like that, around my family. it was horrible, and i was contemplating suicide after i woke up and was so upset with myself. i too was still buzzed a bit from the alcohol, and if i had a gun, would have taken my life. i think alot of us on here go through the same thing. please dont hurt yourself over this. and DONT buy a gun because when your drunk you might do something real stupid with it.