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[dreambeliever]

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:welcome: Im still struggling myself, so dont have a lot of words of inspiration to offer at the moment....

I can tell you I have bin taking Camprmal for over a month now,and its definately helping me as is the love and support on this site..... Keep posting.... You are not alone x

[chardan-not]

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I guess I was too - justanotherdrunk

I know the feeling when picking your screen name. I thought of 'blackeye' for the giant shiner I gave myself last year when I crashed into the corner of my nightstand after a misguided attempt to find my bed after a night of 'wining and wining'. This one didn't fade for nearly 3 months. My husband wouldn't go anywhere with me - not wanting the accusatory stares that must follow a suspected wife-beater. I now think I know a little of what people with facial disfiguments go through - the sympathetic looks, some stares and the "tsk-tsk-tsk" head-nodding. I pretty much went nowhere, except to the store and that was usually to pick up some groceries and of course wine. I did get a lot of extra condiments at drive-throughs though. Thank god my job doesn't involve one-on-one customer contact or having a black eye would have sucked even more. It was the worst black eye I ever saw on anyone - shades of almost black purple which of course faded into lovely green and gold hues.
I also thought of 'sprained' after tripping down several steps and twisting my ankle so bad I thought that I broke it. I really don't remember doing this other than I was yelling at my cat and trying to shoo him outside. Maybe I forgot I even have steps? I won't up the next day and tried to step out of bed 'forgetting' my messed up foot. Ouch.
'Burned' also came to mind after I cooked the heel of my hand while trying to pick up a searing hot lid fresh from the oven - without a pot-holder. Word to the wise - don't cook when drunk.
Justanother - you are not just another - you are here, and your story is unique to you. The fact that you logged on means you know this life of drinking has to come to a halt.
If someone would have told me how good I feel minus the booze - I would have argued with them all day long. I feel like a whole new person. Yes, it sucked at first - not knowing what to do with myself without a glass in my hand.
Now I feel like I have a whole extra day - it's actually the evening and I spend as much of it doing productive things rather than drink myself into a stupor - not remembering when I went to bed.
Good Luck justanother 'drivenperson'?

[Mike with a dream]

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Chardan-not,

Thanks for the input. I haven't gone through such pain, but I can remember waking up to a flooded house. Apparently, I hit the toilet water tank with enough force, when I must have passed out (don't remember any of it), that it broke at the base. Imagine my surprise, as my feet hit the floor to a very wet carpet. This was even before I put on a lot of weight, thanks to alcohol calories. It's ironic because alcohol took away my desire to eat.

My ex-wife got into a relationship where her boyfriend would beat her up if she spent money on rent, rather than drugs. She often had to explain to co-workers that she slipped and hit her head on a door frame. She still loves this man, although she moved out after three years of abuse. I don't get it. Why would anyone put up with this? Maybe it's a form of self loathing.

Mike

PS I've asked that my screen name be changed to Mike.

[Mike with a dream]

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fjones,

Your drinking history doesn't seem that bad. I'm impressed that you've been able to quit for as long as you have. Granted, your recent drinking behavior indicates a potential problem, but it seems that your will to quit is very strong. If you think anti-depressants may help, go for it! I can drink a pint, if not a fifth, of Wild Turkey 101 every night. The problem is, I don't get sick, slow maybe - but not sick. I've only been sick from alcohol once, when I was a teenager, when I drank a fifth of vodka at a Christmas party at work. (Little did I know what was to come.) The doctor told me it could have killed me. The problem with many alcoholics is that they have a great tolerance for alcohol. That's me. I'm told that my parents, hence genetics, were alcoholics. They would have a drink before dinner, wine with dinner, and a drink after dinner - every day. Compared to me, that's nothing. I wish I could drink that way. I used to tell total strangers in bars that I could drink them under the table. I wasn't boasting - it happened many times. I've never had a DUI, why I don't know.

Don't give up.

[chardan-not]

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Yes, guilty of broken toilet too while 'under the influence'

Mike ! Great to hear of your new name request!
I broke a toilet trying to 'fix' it when it wouldn't shut off. Wiggling handle didn't work so I took off the top lid on the back to have a look-see. (Why, I don't know, my husband even in a mutually inebriated state could have fixed it). I rattled the inside chains and floats around and decided I fixed it.
Oh I fixed it alright. When I went to put the lid back on it slipped out of my hands and came crashing on top of the toilet, cracking it down the back and causing it to start leaking. (Keep in mind this is a circa 1960 peach-colored toilet that weighed probably 150lbs).
I fessed up to my husband what I had done. He turned off the water leading to the toilet, took it out and wouldn't buy another one for a month. (we do have a 2nd bathroom, but still...).
I'm sure I have plenty more 'fun with household objects while drunk' stories. Enough to go around for at least the last 10 years!
Sorry about your Ex - I know even now people think my husband pounded my eye that night. There really are people who think that there is no other way to get a black eye other than being punched.

[Mike with a dream]

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Firs Day of Sobriety

This may seem like a small step, but I will be going to bed tonight without having had a drink. My first day of sobriety - it was beginning to look like I couldn't do it.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Congratulations, Jad. Not such a small step. A very big step and you just proved you can do it.

[Mike with a dream]

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New name is on the way. This is day two, although temptation was very great to have a holiday drink, just one drink (sure).

[paula]

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Well done Just, keep trying you can do it. x

[lukalee]

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I think that negative names are two sided. I signed up a with a name I have used for years and I am comfortable with. At the same time, if I used something that reminded me every day not to drink could be useful as well. It is a bit negative, but it reminds you of what you do not want to be.

[Mike with a dream]

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Lukalee, my name has been changed to "Mike with a dream". I do like it better, it brings me hope.

[Suzanna]

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Mike, I love the new name! It is positive, and empowering, and I am sure with that new screen name will come lots of good feelings and actions toward your goals. Welcome!

[Mike with a dream]

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Day three.

[paula]

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Well done. !

[Suki411]

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Mike, awesome that you are day 3 AF during the holidays. So glad you changed your name.

I need to change mine. Thanks for the inspiration.