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[Mike with a dream]

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Day 6

[betty boop]

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Mike, WOW....... :goodjob: on day 6 .....

Keep us informed ......

Love & Hugs, BB xx

[Akinna]

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Mike with a dream;243699 wrote: You are right. I was down in the dumps when I chose my screen name. But I don't think I can change it, I'll have to start over. Thanks for the encouragement. By the way, I've got a massive headache. I don't remember this from my last attempts at quiting. Is this normal?

btw you can change your mood. .. I just did...
.. you only click on the mood thing. and then you 'll get the list..etc..
hope it helps..

[Anthony66]

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What a wonderful thread. Congratulations Mike. Today is my day one AF, I start Campral tomorrow. I've also restarted my journal, picking up where I left off in June when I started drinking again daily after 3 months AF.

[Deena]

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Hi Mike,
New to the site, and just read your thread, thanks for posting your progress. It gives those of us who are a few steps "behind" you some hope. I will be checking back to see how you are doing!

[Mike with a dream]

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Deena, I love your avatar, although at my house (in the country) the reverse is sadly true.

Quitting has been much harder this time. Not physically, other than the initial liver pain and ongoing headaches and minor tremors. This time it seems to be more psychological. Campral may be part to blame, as depression is a potential side effect. Hard to tell.

I'm finding it hard to get motivated about anything. I was hoping I'd be full of energy and chomping at the bit to do all the things I neglected last year - when my drinking went to a whole new level. Instead, I find myself looking back on a wasted life, feeling lonely (I live alone) and somewhat at a loss as to the future. Alcohol took care of loneliness, and took so much of my time that I didn't think about much anything else. It's been a very long time, but I'm thinking about God. I'm happy not to be drinking, just unsure as to how to proceed with life in the raw - not walking around in a hungover haze.

[maxman]

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keep at it mike you are doing well

[Finding My Self]

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Mike - Hello! Just catching up after being away for Crimbo and have read all this thread....

WELL DONE!!!!

Wow, you're doing great....

You've said a few things I really remember..."How to proceed with life in the raw"....one tiny step at a time is how.... you will get used to everything feeling different: like looking at things from such a new angle you barely recognise them....feels wobbly abd odd...but a good sign; if it feels 'normal' it's likely to be the 'same' (i.e. no change has occured) but if it feels 'all wrong', then something's changed, you're seeing/doing/experiencing it differently - ergo, you're not pissed!!!! YEA!! Soon, the former seems 'right' and the latter 'wrong'. Then you're on your way!

And it sounds as if you're feeling different this time......great! Bodes well I think!!! "Trying is only emphasising what we know already" and if it didn't work the first time, it ain't gonig to work the second! Change it a bit > you feel it differently = progress!

I soooooh wish you well..... and I love your new name....you're obviously still the same lovely guy but it is much nicer and more positive to read 'Mike with a Dream' than the other one! Guess you might get to be called 'MWAD'!!!

Love 'FMS'!!! xx

[Dolly Sunshine]

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Hi,
I'm on day 13 and trust me the energy will come back. Boredom was the biggest trigger for me to drink. Now I realize that drinking triggered my boredom. I can't believe how much I am getting done every day. Just give it a few more days but I would suggest at least a B complex and magnesium I really think they helped me a lot.

[wjr23]

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I believe its hereditary,but is that my excuse? my father died of live cancer aged 59, my aunt died of cirrohsis of the liver but here i am aged 40 + and still drinking heavily even tho i come from a family of drinkers. i have just started posting as i was too ashamed (if thats the right word) to post when i first joined12 months ago.im often down in the dumps but now i intent to go AF january, its a start,

[Finding My Self]

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Welcome wjr23.....just you get posting! There is no such thing as shame here.....just an acknowledgement of every inch of bravery in every post..... and mine to you is

WELL DONE!! Go for it (eg DO IT!) in January!

Good Luck
FMS x

[Mike with a dream]

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wjr23, I'm on day number 8, it helps a lot to post on WMO. I'm 50, and my liver was hurting a lot a week ago, but it's improved a lot. There's hope... keep posting. You may want to try Campral. I have. I'm not sure it's helping, it's hard to tell, but I don't have the craving I had a week ago. I don't want to die a drunk. I posted before I quit, and it took me a while to get the courage to fight my way through the first night, the second night was almost as hard, but every day is getting easier now. I've quit many, many times, but this was the hardest by far - I put it off for a year. I was tempted to put if off yet for another day, but made up my mind to go to bed sober. I took a sleeping aid, it helped. If you can't start now, can you commit to January 1st? What a wonderful way to start a brand new year!

[wjr23]

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hi mike, u are doing good on day 8.im out tonight for my last lot of drinks before tomorrow, I will commit but i know its going to be so tough.i am determined to go all january af. take care

[Shikakai]

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Glad you're doing so much better, Mike. You should be very proud of yourself. Yes, tomorrow would be a great time to stop once and for all.

[Mike with a dream]

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Day nine, not. I messed up last night. I fooled myself into thinking it would be ok to drink for new year's eve. Actually, I felt guilty as hell, and considered getting onto MWO - but didn't. I'm not totally unhappy about it, though, because after two drinks, I didn't like the way I felt, so I dumped the rest. I wonder if Campral can have that effect? If so, that's great. Back to day 1, but it's a new year! wjr23, I hope you look forward to it too.