Incredible fall from grace.

[fjones]

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Hi Cindi and others offering their loving support,

Give or take you will be on Day 2 like me. I feel pretty rough = sweats, anxiety, guilt, shame, remorse, worry that this is going to continue and hardly able to function my brain is so hammered. I am so disgusted with the way alcohol takes me and it is a vicious downward spiral - the loss of confidence when I drink is just soul shattering.

Does MWO have any face to face meetings?

Hope you are all okay.

[Suki411]

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Cindi, glad you are home Safe and sound.

Bootsie....thinking of you.

Sending love, hugs, good wishes to you both.

[Cinders]

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My dearest MWO friends,

I do so apologize for my wild night the other night.

When I logged into chat and started rambling, I knew immediately I needed to get off because I was not in a frame of mind to say or do anything rational.

It absolutely was NOT because I was hurt or upset with you, Bootise!! I was just hating myself.

Yes, one side effect of drinking for me has become a horrible dislike of myself. So, I MUST stay away from the booze. There is no doubt that if I fall back into the abyss of drinking, I will end up in a very bad place. I had just let that one last week away from home make me so homesick and incredibly depressed. You know, the one where the brain told me something I know better than.. a couple drinks will make me feel better.

I logged off chat when I realized I was sloppy drunk and stupid. It had nothing to do with any of you guys at all!!

All I have EVER felt here is love. Pure and simple. As a matter of fact, I would never have gone to rehab or even begun to try to take control of my life back without all of you here at MWO.

:l :l

I can't spend much time on MWO for the next few days. I hit the ground running yesterday and still have an overwhelming amount to finish up before my folks arrive so that Santa can come and make a beautiful Christmas with my family.

Do know, I love each and everyone of you.

Bootsie - I feel so selfish because I know you are going through a really scary time right now and deserve some big love. Please take care.

Everyone else, please know your love and support will stay with me and keep me going.

I love each and everyone of you.

Cindi

[Beaches]

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Cindi, I am so happy to hear from you. Just remember what happened is one more step in recovery and one more reason for you to keep strong. Very happy you are safe.

[Suki411]

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Cindi, glad you're home and sounding like the fabulous person you are.

hope your southern christmas is the best ever.

Have only joined MWO recently but your posts are so inspiring. Many thanks and the merriest xmas to you and your family.

[Guest]

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Merry Christmas cindi. :l

Starlight Impress x

[memarcie]

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Cindi, I'm glad you made it home safe. I hope you have a great Christmas with the family.
:l

[AMELIA]

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Dear Cindi, so good to read your second post. You sound ok and I hope you are feeling better. Wishing you a calm and contented Christmas with your family. xxx

[lucky 2.0]

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This thread has made me all sappy and emotional this morning. I love each one of you very much. And RJ too. I pray for peace and health for all.

xo

[paula]

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Cindi, so good to hear from you, sounding like your old self.
Have a happy peaceful Christmas.
Love Paula. xx

[universal]

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Cindi, you have been such an inspiration to me - I just read your post. I am so glad you are home safe and sound and with your family. Like everyone else earlier has said, relapse is part of recovery - believe me when I say that you certainly didn't make me think any less of you - If anything you are more my inspiration now than ever because you were so willing to share your experiences - which helps us all and hopefully helps you as well because it shows you just how much people here love you.

And we all do - have a great holiday girl - we will be thinking of you and you will be in my heart.

Love you,
Uni.

[lushy]

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Cindi,

Sending you love!:l

[signature]

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We all do things when we're drinking that we wouldn't otherwise do. That's why we're all here. Let's look forward to good days when we don't drink. Keep your chin up. We'll do this together.

[YoungAtHeart]

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What a wonderful thing to hear from you Cindi. Take care of yourself! :h :h

Just think, you made lucky all sentimental. Not many people get to accomplish that!

Hugs,:l
Kathy

[Mags]

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Making Lucky sappy and emotional. I do think RJ has a special prize for that somewhere.