Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

[FinallyRN]

I can't believe it! I get to start this thread! And on such a great day! It must be a sign!

Wishing all a very Merry X-mas...........well, not too merry.
I will be thinking of you all tonight. I'm going to my fathers house for dinner. They aren't really drinkers but there will be wine around. Plan to have a glass with dinner otherwise I;m day 3 AF.

[Suki411]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

FinallyRN, congrats for starting ODAT on Xmas and your 3 days AF.

Thanks for your good wishes. Hope all have a fabulous holiday.

Just wish I could stop crying.

[Dolly Sunshine]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday.

Suki why are you crying? Is it because of the day? If so you are not alone. In the 6 years since my divorce and my grandmothers death this is the first year I have had any holiday spirit. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact it's also the first year I haven't been loaded a good portion of the time. I will be thinking of you

[Suki411]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Dolly, thanks for your thoughts. My mom died two years ago, I was named executrix and the last two years have been hell. It's almost over though. But I miss her more now.

But have been drinking for the last two days, because I feel so alone. Missed going up to my best friend's house for Xmas eve for the first time in over 20 years.

Can't wait for 2008. Hoping that good things will happen to all of us.

[Dolly Sunshine]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

I can't wait for a New Year either. It is hard to be alone especially if you tend to get depressed. I've had times where I've been in a roomful of people and still felt utterly, hopelessly alone. I'm sorry you missed going to your friends house. Is there anywhere you can go today?

[Suki411]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Thanks, Dolly, love your name!

Could go to my mom's sister's house, but very depressing atmosphere. Three cousins, all single women who don't like each other.

Think that a long walk through Boston, with my ipod will be a better choice.

I'm just so shocked that this holiday season has had such a bad effect on me. Haven't heard from my self-absorbed brother who sexually abused me when I was so young. Haven't heard from my perfect sister and her perfect, overachieving daughters.

Oooh, can you tell I'm having a bad day.

[Dolly Sunshine]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Sounds like you have every right to be bitter. Just don't let it eat you up. It will not affect them. Best way to get them is make yourself happy and healthy I would avoid the aunts. Not a way I'd want to spend my holiday.

[cowgal]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

tough

This holiday season is always tough on most of us, I know for me, can't wait for 2008.............just kinda passing the time til it gets here
Love you guys!!!!:l

MA:h

[FinallyRN]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Wow, this has turned into being a downer of a thread.
Suki, Dolly is right, the best way to get back at all of them is to get well and be happy.
Do whatever you have to to get through the day. Movie? I'm sure your best friend would enjoy your company today..........
And if I were you I would never see my brother again. I don't care what it took. I was sexually abused by an alcoholic grandfather. I use to kill me to be nice to him when he'd come over and visit. Like nothing happened?! I never shed a tear when he died.

[paula]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Thanks for starting the thread RN, it's now 20.20 here, I'm sober and have had a good day
so far, I'm going to watch tv and eat chocolate. Hope you all feel better soon, tomorrow is
another day. x

[Suki411]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

My apologies for being such a downer today.So sorry. Am so looking forward to 2008.

[FinallyRN]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

No apologies are necessary. Part of getting better is dealing with our demons. They just come and surface when you least expect it and at holiday time. I just wish I could help more. I'm also looking forward to 2008.......

[FinallyRN]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

PS Suki and all.
I just came from "general discusion" and read a thread called a X-mas story. Its very beautiful and inspiring. Just when I think I'm loosing faith with humanity I read about one persons life and struggle. It makes me strong.
Love to all

[Suki411]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Thanks, FinallyRN. Not one member of my family called to wish me a merry xmas.

Called my sister at 9:30 am, woke her up, said she would call me back. Still waiting.

Will kill all the demons. After taking care of mom, dad, grandmother for the last 27 years, it's time for me. I just don't know how to start.

[retteacher]

Newbies in need ODAT- Xmas Day

Hi Everyone: We're home after a day w/kids & g-kids. It was hectic & a little chaotic, but wonderful & AF. Yes, there was an open bottle of white within eyeshot, but I didn't have any. I feel good about that.

There's something about Christmas...all the hype, I guess...that makes it such a relief when it's all over. My daughter & son-in-law looked thoroughly exhausted & the kids were totally over-stimulated. Everyone will probably in crash mode tomorrow, & I pretty sure the X-mas tree will be out of there pronto.

Love you all, Mary