Trying for 5 days AF

[February72]

Well, the time has come for me to embark on a AF attempt. I've done it before, so I know it's possible. Actually went 7 weeks last summer. For me, the immediate goal is to put the shoe on the other foot and NOT drink more than do drink. For a long time a day or two a week AF was all I cared to go. And that was usually due to what I believe we are calling alcohol induced anxiety. I feel strong-willed enough about it, but as usual whenever I attempt to self-improve, outside stressors or triggers out of my control start coming at me hard. They say there's a demon in the bottle...maybe so. But, I think there are others about, too. I mean really, ya try to start something positive and it's like *something* picks up the scent and trys to hammer ya down. Good grief.
I'll take all the support this community is so great at.

[Skye650]

Trying for 5 days AF

And we are right there/here for you... I am at AF day 7 and I thought I wouldnt even make it past AF 3, so yeah dont think about it too much, just get into it and do it as you have done before.. good luck!!!

[February72]

Trying for 5 days AF

I haven't even received the book or kudzo, yet. My Dr.'s appointment isn't until the 11th, which is when I will ask for Topomax. So, I'm on a wing and a prayer. I honestly feel pretty optimistic about it though.
The hardest part has already reared it's ugly head. The woman in the apartment next to me "really" doesn't like me. I mean, so bad she harasses me verbally through the walls. Says she won't be happy till I move and all sorts of hatefullness. Shut, I used to drink just to block her out. Now, I'm setting aside my magic potion... This forum does get me upbeat. This time around I'm nearly embracing the challenge as opposed to it being a drudgery.
I guess the neighbor woman doesn't like me because I don't have a full-time job. What she and most of the world doesn't understand is that alcohol and verbal abuse have debilitated me pretty bad. I figure I'm looking at around 6 months of personal rehab before being full steam again. I mean, I've delved into the malnourishment and all that. Wish she could understand her *poison* is only part of the problem. It would be a mistake to rush this, yet they seem to think I should just pop right back into it. Hopefully some can relate.

[Masquerade]

Trying for 5 days AF

Dear Robenzo -

Congrats on your journey! We can be each other's wings ... and God hears all prayers.

I, too, am a noob. These folks have been tremendously supportive. I feel truly blessed to have found this site. I might warn you ... it is addictively wonderful .

Please be kind to yourself. It reads as though your neighbor gal is fighting her own demons. You CAN become healthier and happier. I am on my way (day 7) to finding My Way Out.

Hugs to you.
- Masq

[jellybeanjod]

Trying for 5 days AF

Hey Robenzo,

Good job on being AF. I hope I can make it that far, I am only on day 3. But like you I have a lot of will power and I am slowly losing the desire to drink. Good luck to ya and feel free to drop me a line whenever you feel!

[jellybeanjod]

Trying for 5 days AF

Hey Robenzo
Thanks for the e-mail. I hope things are good with you. Just thought I'd let you know I am doing really well. I have been AF for 4 days now and am feeling real good health wise. I have only been to San Francisco,CA, but it eminds me of my town. The weather is pretty much like ours and all the beaches there just like where I live. It is beautiful!