Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

[Bessie]

Morning!

Now I KNOW it is Saturday today as I am up early for hunting!. It is a beautiful, sunny winter day here in the UK....... No, actually, I'm lying. It is cold and dark and windy and wet. The ground will be a quagmire and all my careful washing of the horse (he's white!) to get him clean this morning, will be undone in minutes of sloshing through the mud. Ho hum. That's the downside. The upside is that I will be out in the English countryside on my beloved horse doing some thing that we both love and work very hard to keep up.

Last night I was AF ......no, actually I'm lying about that too! I had two large gin and tonics. Would have had 10 AF days under my belt if I hadn't. Ho hum. That's the downside. The upside is that I DO have 9 AF days under my belt and I KNOW I will get to 10 and more. The drink knocked me totally sideways and I achieved nothing once I had the first sip. And I feel more grotty this morning than I should do. So it is just re-affirmation for me that AF is my preferred route at the moment. And rather than beat myself up about not achieving day 10 I am celebrating the fact that I have achieved day 9 and my attitude is changing, not to mention my tolerance to alcohol!! This is all such a huge improvement on how I was when I came here.

I suppose what I am trying to say to anyone new is keep a positive attitude. Keep going, keep working at it and keep coming here. If you are feeling bad and a failure - do what you can to change that. It really is worth working hard at getting some AF days - they will make you feel so much better about yourself.

Happy Saturday. Tally ho!!

Bessie xxx

[Last Of The Summer Wine]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Good morning Bessie and all who pop in later. It's actually a lovely bright sunny day in my part of the UK, sorry Bessie, hope it's cleared up now for you and your lovely horse. I love looking at horses, but I am a wee bit scared of them, big muckle things! I am going to have a "me" day today, just taking it easy, do a bit of shopping, maybe treat myself to something nice for being such a good girl. Hubby has been away overnight and I had the bed to myself last night, well apart from the dog of course!! So maybe go and buy something special for dinner and give him warm welcome home - nudge, nudge, wink, wink, know what I mean!! Still feeling good, thanks to y'all!! Take care xxxx
J

[Suki411]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Bessie, I so LOVE reading your posts. They are so filled with an excitement of what you love to do. AL takes a back seat to your horse, hunting, pigs, whatever, (What is your horse's name?)

I want to take a vacation and visit YOU! Horses had played such an important part in my mom's and her family's life, but they never wanted to impose that on her kids. What a shame!

I agree with you. Bought a bottle of vodka last night. Had one mild drink, and said, why am I doing this?

My life, my priorities have changed so much since MWO, today have another therapist's appointment. She told me she has never met anyone who has thought less about themselves then me. OK, time to get selfish. (Why does that sound bad?)

Tally ho Bessie! J, have a lovely night tonight with hubby!

I hope everyone who stops in here today, has the same love for life that our Bessie has!

[lukalee]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

I am just sitting here waiting for the playoffs to start!!!

[rudemama]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

hello, suki its so not selfish to think about yourself, you are very caring and compassionate spoil yourself :l I had several drinks last night and actually feel like crap today....i will not drink today and care for my body soul and mind and spoil myself at least get outside in the sun
bessie enjoy the hunt
rudemama

[Suki411]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Lee, love being AF. I can watch the games and not fall asleep in the first quarter!

Why does everyone hate the Pats?

Rude, thanks! Love hearing from you. You always make me feel better about myself.

[charlee]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Morning all
Saturday morning, getting ready for work....Lukalee, I too am anxious for the playoffs, but don't really sit and enjoy them as much as I used to...have a hard time "just relaxing" since going AF....guess that is a good thing, getting alot more accomplished than in days of old.....Just can't seem to find that off button!...Hope everyone has a good weekend.

[universal]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Hi everyone! Happy Saturday,

Suki - just for the record - I love the Pats - want to see them win the superbowl!

I had an AF Friday night last night - yeah me! First one in a while - feel good today. I am keeping busy this weekend, trying to keep my mind off my relationship woes but it is hard. I am doing a lot of thinking and am feeling somewhat down in the dumps. But I know that I will make it through this day. And I am going to try really hard to make it through AF - that is my goal. Going to take my supps and try to be good to myself - I actually slept a bit last night so I'm not feeling too bad today - finally.

Hope everyone has a great day - I'll be thinking of you all............

RN where are you????

[flutterby]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Suki-
I don't hate the Pats and I love the Bruins.
Go Wings!
xox
Fby

[Suzanna]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Good morning all. Bessie it sounds like you will enjoy the ride and it doesn't matter what the weather is doing. I wish I had horses in my life but was a real city girl growing up, just saw the horses in Manhattan pulling those carriages around Christmas time, kinda felt sorry for them. OK I feel crappy because I drank a bottle and a half of wine last night. I could not get a day 5! But friends, I am going to keep on trying, keep on doing!! Saturday shmatterday, I am going to be af today. :h

[rudemama]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

hey all,
i like the pats though i don't follow football love the red sox especially big papi, and have always loved bobby orr. back from my daughter's basketball game both coaches remarked on her intutition and skill her first year, she is 12 so i am a proud mom....just wish my mom were alive so i could brag to her, these situations make me sad and miss her, but i will brag to you thanks all. I am where you are Suzanna so we are together trying to navigate a course rudemama

[Bessie]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Back from hunting. I am exhausted (in a good way) Everything is covered in mud so now the horse is tucked up in his stable, with his tea, lots of hay and a big straw bed it is time to start cleaning everything!! Turned out to be a gloriously sunny day so we had a great time. Really do not feel like drinking at all this evening - that is always a relief - I know there won't be an internal battle going on with the brat. I think she is tired too!

Suki - I hope you had a good day and were kind to yourself. It is so important. I hope your therapist can guide you along that path. You are so caring - try some of it on YOU! BTW His name is Atticus (like the lawyer in To Kill A Mockingbird)!! But we call him Neddy mostly! .

LOTSW - How did the ME day go? And what did you end up cooking for that special dinner? My hubby goes away a lot and I always try to have something nice cooked up for him when he gets back. Used to be a couple of bottles of wine too - but that is definitely changing!!

I don't really understand all the games stuff I'm afraid. Are you talking about American football. Or is it soccer? Or is that what you call English football? Or maybe you're talking about baseball. Can anyone fill me in?

Universal - I'm really glad you are starting to feel better. You deserve it. I read your story and cried about your mum.

Bessie xx

[Suzanna]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Hi Bessie, the American Football is in playoffs now, leading up to the Superbowl. Soccer is what we call your football. Pats is short for Patriots, with their perfect season, no I don't hate them!! Naaahhhh.... just that my Giants almost kicked their butts. Thank you rudemama for the comaraderie, I do so need that. :h

[retteacher]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Just checking in. It seems like everyone has found their groove which is very gratifying. Love, Mary

[Deena]

Newbies in need - ODAT - Saturday - yes really!

Hi all,
Checking in quick....tough week at work this week, ended up working 65 hours (give or take) dealing with a major crisis, so I wasn't able to check in. Haven't even been listening to my CD's other than the subliminal one in the car and last night I got one in before bed.

Things continue to be incredibly "improved" for me although I've only gotten one AF night in this week. I can't believe how much I've cut back without too much painful effort.

I still need to determine what my actual "goals" are here, so far the reduction in my alcohol intake alone is enough to keep me motivated and vested in this program. The supplements are great! I got my topa yesterday, but am not sure if I'm going to take it or not....any thoughts from ODATs greatly appreciated.

As always, thanks for this thread, I love reading about all of you and how you are doing, I get a lot of motivation and inspiration from your words.