Hello, My name is Damo and I stumbled across this website which I find fascinating, I have read a lot of posts over the last week. I am 35 years of age from Ireland and hate alcohol but love it also. I drink way too much, now that I think of it, I have not gone more than 3 days withoout a drink in about 15 years, maybe more. I hide the quantity that I drink very well. I get so down after a heavy session.
My father (aged 56) is a chronic alcoholic and many of my relatives have drink problems. I hate what booze has done to my family, especially my Dad, he is the nicest man in the world when he is off the drink, but an asshole when he drinks. He binges for months, gets into serious debt (my poor mam), and then attempts to give it up. He usually lasts about 3 weeks, although he did it for 3 months recently(life in my family home was great) but went back on it on new years day and he is back to is 2 bottles of whiskey per day along with his few pints of guinness..
I dont live there, I feel if I cut down drastically I will end up like him, my wife would not accept it and I would end up divorced. My wife is beautiful, I love her so much, and I have 2 terrific sons aged 16 & 7. I have so much to be grateful for..
I am really down at the moment but happy that I havent had a drink since tuesday( I wrote this originally on friday evening, )
I hope I dont drink this weekend, my wife will wonder why, I will just tell her I am trying to cut down. She doesnt know the quantity that I drink, as I said I hide it very well.
She would be horrified if she found out, especially the drink driving.
Everyone thinks I am just a weekend drinker with a few on a monday also. I play for a darts team on mondays in my local.
I try not to drink on wednesdays and thursdays but usually find a way to get a few sneaky ones.
My tricks of hiding are
After a lot of beer on monday, there would be a smell of booze off me on tuesdays, therfore I can have 2 sneaky ones at lunchtime and 2 or 3 on the way home, if she smells drink, irts from last night, most tuesdays, I would fall asleep on sofa at 8 o clock , Wednesday mornings are the worst after 5 hard days of drinking.
I alwys seem to be busy most wednesdays in work. I come home, have dinner , spend some time at home and tell my wife I need to go back to work for a few hours, on the way to work, slip into the off license for 6 cans and have them in work. Go home for 12 ish and my wife would be asleep.
So often I say on thursdays I say "lets have a glass of wine" to start the weekend. I can usually find a way to slip out of the house for 2 sneaky ones. (wash the car, go to the bottle bank or just the shop) and think of a reason why i took so long.
At the weekend if we are sitting in, I always go collect our chinese takeaway, I order it and tell them I will be bact to collect in 20 mins, another 2 sneaky ones.
This is the way my life is turning out, always looking for ways to have a few sneaky drinks.
I originally wrote this on friday evening. Its now sundaty morning and I have drank all weekend and have a plan for a few extra drinks tonight. I am going to really give it my all to go AF for 2 weeks starting tuesday. Wish me luck, thanks for listening.
I WILL ALWAYS BE HONEST ON THIS SITE,
My father (aged 56) is a chronic alcoholic and many of my relatives have drink problems. I hate what booze has done to my family, especially my Dad, he is the nicest man in the world when he is off the drink, but an asshole when he drinks. He binges for months, gets into serious debt (my poor mam), and then attempts to give it up. He usually lasts about 3 weeks, although he did it for 3 months recently(life in my family home was great) but went back on it on new years day and he is back to is 2 bottles of whiskey per day along with his few pints of guinness..
I dont live there, I feel if I cut down drastically I will end up like him, my wife would not accept it and I would end up divorced. My wife is beautiful, I love her so much, and I have 2 terrific sons aged 16 & 7. I have so much to be grateful for..
I am really down at the moment but happy that I havent had a drink since tuesday( I wrote this originally on friday evening, )
I hope I dont drink this weekend, my wife will wonder why, I will just tell her I am trying to cut down. She doesnt know the quantity that I drink, as I said I hide it very well.
She would be horrified if she found out, especially the drink driving.
Everyone thinks I am just a weekend drinker with a few on a monday also. I play for a darts team on mondays in my local.
I try not to drink on wednesdays and thursdays but usually find a way to get a few sneaky ones.
My tricks of hiding are
After a lot of beer on monday, there would be a smell of booze off me on tuesdays, therfore I can have 2 sneaky ones at lunchtime and 2 or 3 on the way home, if she smells drink, irts from last night, most tuesdays, I would fall asleep on sofa at 8 o clock , Wednesday mornings are the worst after 5 hard days of drinking.
I alwys seem to be busy most wednesdays in work. I come home, have dinner , spend some time at home and tell my wife I need to go back to work for a few hours, on the way to work, slip into the off license for 6 cans and have them in work. Go home for 12 ish and my wife would be asleep.
So often I say on thursdays I say "lets have a glass of wine" to start the weekend. I can usually find a way to slip out of the house for 2 sneaky ones. (wash the car, go to the bottle bank or just the shop) and think of a reason why i took so long.
At the weekend if we are sitting in, I always go collect our chinese takeaway, I order it and tell them I will be bact to collect in 20 mins, another 2 sneaky ones.
This is the way my life is turning out, always looking for ways to have a few sneaky drinks.
I originally wrote this on friday evening. Its now sundaty morning and I have drank all weekend and have a plan for a few extra drinks tonight. I am going to really give it my all to go AF for 2 weeks starting tuesday. Wish me luck, thanks for listening.
I WILL ALWAYS BE HONEST ON THIS SITE,
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