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[Janice]

Hi everyone. Don't know where to start really. Well, I do - with an apology. I just disappeared and found I didn't have the energy to come on here any more, to communicate with you, my friends - I'm so very sorry. Daft thing was, I was doing really well and from 1st October did 60 days AF. But, during that time especially November, emotionally I was in a right state and ended up on prozac. I know so much had a lot to do with losing dad and mam's drinking etc. I just couldn't pull myself together and I went to hell and back - and thats without alcohol!!!! One day I even wrote my last wishes I felt so bad and wanted to end everything. I just wanted to be with Dad. Anway I came off the prozac and took myself by the scruff of the neck and am trying to pull myself together.

I'm getting there - slowly - but, old habits are creeping back. I have no right to just come back here when it suits me. I've still got a long way to go...but I just want to say hi to all my old friends, wish you all a happy "successful" 2008 and a special hello to Mary..."mam".
I don't know if I'll be back regularly but I'll see how things go, I do know that that "need" is there again and I have to keep an eye on myself.


Janicexx

[Not Happy Hour-Happy Life]

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Hi Janice~ I'm a newbie that's been here for only a little while. I just looked through your posts, and Janice, you are a true CHEERLEADER for many of those that inspire us newbies- like for Chief, Mary, and Satori. I'm sure that they've missed you! As for me, I certainly could do with another cheerleader! :l

And Janice, if you need some help, don't be afraid to come back. This is like a Virtual Home, and we are all in this journey together. We are here for you!:groupluv:
Much love,

[lukalee]

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....And I just want to add, come when you need to. We are here for you.

[Riker]

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Janice,

I joined in August of 07 and I have seen first hand just how much you mean to these forums, you and a few select few, like Starlight, Satori, Reteacher (Mary) and quite a few more veterans (I apologize if I do not mention you now, but you know who you are and are never forgotten) have been part of the foundation of this place, the strength, the inspiration, day after day..

So, I do hope that you come back as a contributor of hope as before, I for one am very happy to see you back, even if I myself do not spend as much time as I should on this forum.

Riker,

[Mags]

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Janice

I am so happy to see you back. I have been wondering where you have been. You are always always always welcome back - no matter what you have been doing or where you have been. We're a family, remember.

I'm so sorry you had to go through such a terrible time. I too have bad depression problems and sometimes just get sucked into these deep dark pits and it can take quite a while to climb back out of them. It just happens. No apologies needed. I'm just glad you are climbing back out and are back here with us.

Please visit us often if you feel like it.

:l

[happydog]

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Hi janice,

It is so good to see you posting and :welcome: Dont need to apology, and there is no need for explanation why we go. you have your reasons and everyone has the RIGHT to come back when ever they feel like it, in there own time. we are all here for you.

Take lots of care.x
Love
Teardrop.x

[Cinders]

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Janice,

Like everyone else is saying, please don't apologize. It is okay to go through rough patches. Period.

We all still love you and will be here for you whenever you need us.

Okay?

Meanwhile. :l :l

Love,
Cindi

[rustop61]

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Hi Janice

So good to hear from you again. I thought of you often during the last few months. So sorry you had such a hard time. As the others said, there is no need to apologise. Well done on your 60 days. You are right to keep a check on it, thats one of the reasons I keep coming to MWO. It keeps me motivated and does me good to check in regularly. There is a ODAT, one day at a time thread over in newbies that a lot of us check into, come join us if you feel like it.

Rustop

[Janice]

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Thank you for your kind words ..... Janicexxx