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[SKendall]

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Hi DMarie, you are a welcome member to this site. We have all struggled. Read Barry's post today. There is hope.

[universal]

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DMarie,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.........many before me have said the same things but I really hope you stay with us. There is so much to be gained here - I have been here 3 months and have met new friends - truely non-judgemental people. I have posted and thought "wow, these people are going to think I'm a pain in the ass" - you know what? They don't, they listen, they offer support, advice and friendship. This place is a great place to be.........and we will all listen and help and support you. So please don't go.........you need to want to help yourself but we also want to help you.

Take care and hugs.......
Uni

[Cinders]

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DMarie,

I just wanted to add my welcome, too.

I am so sorry you have such issues with emotions when sober. I, too, have issues with being sober and "feeling" the right things. I guess a lot of us do.

Unfortunately, if we want to live, we have to learn to deal with the sobriety issues. It is hard, I know, but many here have taken it on, beaten the beast, and are happier than ever before. Their stories and posts give me hope and most amazing to me, they also jump in and help when I am struggling.

Please stay. You are welcome and you, too, are simply "one of us."

Love,
Cindi

[keeta]

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DMarie,

I was absolutely overwhelmed by your post. How brave you are to toss it all on the table.
The amazing thing about this place is that while you may expect people to turn away from you (which is what I have experienced repeatedly in my life when suffering), here, you will find love, support, compassion, and understanding.

Keep coming back...there IS hope.

much love and hugs,
K

[Punkin]

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Punkin

Sounds like life sort of dumped on you. I am fighting addiction and I know I drink because I am not dealing with the fact that my husband has alzeheimers disease. A little "dump" in itself.

I am new here, but When I hear your story - I want to get mad at everyone who treated you badly and I would hope you would get mad enough to fight back. They cannot win!!!!

[DMarie]

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You people are the best!

Yes, if life was meant to be a test in emotional pain/tolerance, I would hope to make the semifinals.

I am hugely hung over.

My good friends...

It is time to drink again...

I went and checked my mom. (Is she breathing?)

She is not up.

Did she spend the night worrying about me?

Probably!

I woke up.

Panic!

I found my purse outside.

Thank God there was a bottle inside!

Muddy footprints inside.

Ouch! I think I have a bruise on my left eye.

Has anyone here ever woke up and had to play "Find the bottle"

Yes, I love Pink Floyd!

But, my quote came from Simon & Garfunkel. Hello darkness my old friend...

I have taken care of people that I love in the "end-stage" of life.

I loved my grandmother so much!

I had made a promise to her (drunk but I kept it)

I promised her she would never be sent to a "care facility". That seems to be the trend for Americans and the elderly. I miss her sooo much.

I took care of her and my Aunt (Daddy's sister)! till the end!

I would put her in her wheelchair and take her to have her hair done.
I cooked her favorite foods.
I love her so much.

I know I am a disappointment to her.


My daughter called yesterday. She told me that being "A ward of the state" gave her access to financial aid for college. She is such a strong Christian. She is 850 miles away. Thank God for my brother (I call him John the Baptist) took her in.

I am done talking for today.

I wish everyone here a life of love, healing, and promise.

Yeah, I am a corny drunk!

[dexterhead]

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Oh, Simon & Garfunkel ... that's it.
DMarie: PLEASE take care of yourself!! You are so strong .. you are not any sort of "disappointment" .. you are an inspiration ... please stick around

[DMarie]

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I found this site because I was looking for a "cure".

I didn't expect that anyone would care.

It feels good?

I think?

Do you care?

I don't (I lie)

I care!

I want to be the person I am capable of being.

I don't know how!

[lukalee]

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I think you do know how; it's in there; I can see it.

[DMarie]

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I lie to myself constantly.

Yes, I am capable of feeling love and compassion,

just not for myself!

[lukalee]

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I think we all feel like that at times; especially those of us who drink too much. We think too much about the past (and future) and what we should have done or not done. We cannot change those things, as much as we would love to, but we can change the moment we are living in. Life sucks sometimes, but it won't ever get better unless we do something about it. I cannot change anything but myself; that means learning to love myself. Not an easy task, but sure worth the effort.

[lukalee]

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And the one thing about lying to oneself; it's really hard to get away with it!!!

[Thankful]

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Dmarie - can you pour out what you found in that "hidden" bottle in your purse? Just start with today. Give it up for today, please.

We all care. And I don't lie. One day at a time, but it all starts today. Let us help.

Love, Me
:l

[DMarie]

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Will you be my friend?

I might get sick again.

[greeneyes]

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You seem quite creative to me. Yeah, I play find the bottle. I even squat down beside the car in the middle of the night when I see car lights coming around the curve when I'm trying to find a bottle that I don't even know is there and hope the dog doesn't bark and wake up my husband. Sheeesh.