Newbies in need - ODAT - Tuesday
hi all
Hope this finds everyone doing fine, looks that way so far.............I am having a difficult time as I ended up drinking AGAIN last night, even after getting all excited and ready for the "rest of the month AF" proposed here:argh: I wonder if I will EVER make it!?!? Maybe I just don't want it bad enough..............blame it on my husband, cuz he is drinking EVERY day when I get home..............I usually pick up beer before I get home though, so I am partly to blame..............work, my knee, husband, and many other issues have me, and I know they arejust excuses, but I feel extremely hopeless, like checking myself in somewhere that I can't get to any stores or something like that, then I think of how UNREALISTIC that is..............w/ work, the kids, etc...........the impossible dream.........sobriety?? I even toss around AA meetings, but too embarrassed to go back to them.....................:sighbubble:
Sorry to vent off like this, but I am having a BLA day.................really depressing!:upset:
MA:h
hi all
Hope this finds everyone doing fine, looks that way so far.............I am having a difficult time as I ended up drinking AGAIN last night, even after getting all excited and ready for the "rest of the month AF" proposed here:argh: I wonder if I will EVER make it!?!? Maybe I just don't want it bad enough..............blame it on my husband, cuz he is drinking EVERY day when I get home..............I usually pick up beer before I get home though, so I am partly to blame..............work, my knee, husband, and many other issues have me, and I know they arejust excuses, but I feel extremely hopeless, like checking myself in somewhere that I can't get to any stores or something like that, then I think of how UNREALISTIC that is..............w/ work, the kids, etc...........the impossible dream.........sobriety?? I even toss around AA meetings, but too embarrassed to go back to them.....................:sighbubble:
Sorry to vent off like this, but I am having a BLA day.................really depressing!:upset:
MA:h
eace:
I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
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