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[southernbelle47]

"This is my first time posting. I am 24 years old, and my drinking has gotten out of hand, I am so depressed and scared right now. I can’t believe what am awful person I am. I have no one to talk to.
I crave alcohol, and once I start I can’t – and don’t stop. I am afraid. I don’t know what I’m more scared of alcohol killing me, or not drinking. I could really use a friend because I have managed to alienate most of the people in my life."


I wanted you to have your very own thread so everyone can welcome you!
:welcome: and :goodjob: in coming here.
:l Nancy

[Croft]

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yes, welcome!

And you are not an awful person. You are just struggling with an issue. You are a brave person for wanting to get this craving gone. It is so hard. I am sitting here at my desk right now trying like mad not to go to lunch. Cause if I go to lunch I will inevitably end up somewhere that serves the magic juice. And then I will go to the drive through on the way back to work and then I will take the long way to work so I can have just one more beer while I drive around. It never ends good. You are not alone.

I am hoping that between this site and the hypno CDs and the herbal stuff and the drugs that I can kick this thing once and for all.

I am here for you and so are tons of people on this site. It really is amazing.

Now back to my chant, I will not go to lunch, I will not go to lunch......

[down2earth]

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Southernbelle, thank you for the thread! I had no idea how much I needed someone to understand!
The sense of relief I felt when I found this site, was really what I was looking for. Knowing there are people out there dealing with the same things I am, makes me feel more human than I have in a long time.
Croft -- my chant is: I will not buy liquor this weekend, I will not buy liquor this weekend, I will not buy liquor this weekend. I somehow then get to Friday, and feel like I deserve a drink, because I was able to stay sober during the week. Its funny how I rationalize that.
I am so thankful that I found this site!
Good luck to you, thank you for being here for me!

[lukalee]

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Welcome!!!!! We all rationalize, or shall I say, AL tries to get us to rationalize for it. Al is not going to jump out of the bottle and attack us. It NEEDS us to fight with ourselves or it does not have any power!!!! Dirty little shithead Mr. Miller Lite.

(Sorry---I think my posts are going to be yelling at alcohol today).

[down2earth]

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I wonder how many days will go by before I actually DO drink again…. Because with me, it is never IF, it is always WHEN. I have promised my family I would stop, I told my friends I had stopped. And I tell myself NO MORE! But I keep going right back. This past round has been especially bad. I sit in my bedroom with vodka, and drink it right out the bottle! When I wake up in the morning, I pick that bottle right back up, and start the day off by getting wasted, because I figure a little hair of the dog, is much better than being hung over all day.

[lushy]

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Nice idea SB!

Down2earth, you should be very proud of yourself for wanting to fix this at this young of an age. I knew when I was 24 that I had a problem but did not give a damn. I figured I would grow out of it someday. Well someday never came and now I wish I would have listened to that internal voice when I was much younger. Please work this program and you will see results. Keep up posted!!!

[paula]

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Welcome D2E, I wish I had known at 24 what damage alcohol does to a person, who has
a problem with it, like me. I have probably drank for the past 24 years. You have your whole life in front of you so it's good that you have admitted to yourself and others that
you want to stop, and yes you can, with the support of people on this site, you can recover.
Keep reading and posting, get the MWO book and if you truly want to stop you can.
Wishing you well.
Paula.

[Croft]

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down2earth;259273 wrote: Southernbelle, thank you for the thread! I had no idea how much I needed someone to understand!
The sense of relief I felt when I found this site, was really what I was looking for. Knowing there are people out there dealing with the same things I am, makes me feel more human than I have in a long time.
Croft -- my chant is: I will not buy liquor this weekend, I will not buy liquor this weekend, I will not buy liquor this weekend. I somehow then get to Friday, and feel like I deserve a drink, because I was able to stay sober during the week. Its funny how I rationalize that.
I am so thankful that I found this site!
Good luck to you, thank you for being here for me!

Yes, well I just rationalized myself into a lunchtime beer run. And now I feel awful for caving. It is getting better, but the results are very, very small. Little itsy bitsy results.

[down2earth]

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I have to ask a question, I have been to AA a few times, and being there made me feel so bad about myself. I would cry so hard before every single meeting I went to, and when I would leave I felt like scum of the earth. (Which admitedly, I kinda am) The people there would tell me that it was never possible to “drink normally” However, I have had times in my life when I have been able to have just 1 drink, and stop. I read someone’s post that said they were trying to just drink less. So, I guess my question is, can a person learn to drink normally?

[Croft]

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down2earth;259333 wrote: I have to ask a question, I have been to AA a few times, and being there made me feel so bad about myself. I would cry so hard before every single meeting I went to, and when I would leave I felt like scum of the earth. (Which admitedly, I kinda am) The people there would tell me that it was never possible to ?drink normally? However, I have had times in my life when I have been able to have just 1 drink, and stop. I read someone?s post that said they were trying to just drink less. So, I guess my question is, can a person learn to drink normally?

I believe you can. And I have been at that place. I think the trick is to always understand where YOU ARE with AL. And by the way, I would never go to AA because of all the stories I heard about people humilating you. And then you have to go grocery with those same people.

[dexterhead]

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I think, from reading many posts here, that some people never can, and some can eventually. they recommend you try to go 30 days alcohol free to get some perspective.

[Croft]

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I can't even imagine 3 days AF, let alone 30. Sheeshka!

[down2earth]

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It would make sense that not everyone is the same when it comes to this kind of stuff .In AA the people didn’t think so. I hate the idea of not being able have a champagne toast at my wedding. But I feel like saying that and feeling that way, means I have a total problem.

[jupiter]

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You are not an awful person that is my mantra today. haha. I keep hoping i can learn to drink moderately but if i drink one i wont quit untill i pass out.

[down2earth]

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Jupiter, I do the same thing. I have Been buying smaller bottles of liquor. I’ll get the flask size, instead of a handle. But this weekend I had 1 flask everyday.