And then there's this fear of being alone, of being abandoned, of rejection by people, of having no-one, or nothing, and the frightening worry of that, because I isolated myself from people in the past a long time ago and it was a terrible place to be, alone with my inner turmoil. But that was then and this is now, and I'm ok, and will be ok, somehow I just know, I'll not go back to those feelings because I like other people and need other people.
Really, thinking about it, when I'm drinking, I worry so much about drinking, that I was almost back there anyway, and by trying not to drink, at least I'm not feeling ashamed and guilty all the time.
Just trying to work things through
Geordiegirl
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