I have something to share. I confessed my alcohol addiction with my family this weekend. My brother said he knew, and my mom told me she used to have problems with the bottle. There were plenty of tears, tons of apologies and more understanding than I expected.
I guess i felt the need to confess, because if my family knows what i am up to, maybe it will keep me from drinking so much. Maybe.
I called in sick to work today, party from being really hung over, and partly because I didn't sleep all night because I was having such bad anxiety. I needed a day to really think. And I did, I ordered the kudzu and I'll get the book too, and of course I'll keep coming here to talk about the struggles I will face with each new day.
I can't thank you all enough for being here, and giving me the courage to face reality. I found this site by accident, but I am realizing now, I was very deliberately brought here.
It is a really comforting feeling knowing I am NOT ALONE, eventhough it saddens me to think there are other people out there fighting these same feelings I am. Just know I am here for you, the same way you have been for me.
I love you all, thanks for the constant support.
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