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[tlrgs]

there is alot good here and everywhere...i am 40 years young. and i have seen so much ..good and bad..but much more good now.there was alot of thing i had to do for myself before.i could get here and now.and theres alot still to do to keep it.. well when i started . this path that day. the night before i try to kill myself.you know they say take the easy way out..but before that .for 4 years i try off and on to try to quit drinking.its not as easy as you would beleive.but to the point i started when i was 8 years old drinking.my family love the holiday.and everyday after. so i could take anything i wanted as long as they didnt remember how much they had . and yea it was alot of fun at that time . but then that that day came where they started to fright more and more.and one time it went as far as to see my mom try to kill my dad . yea thats a wake up call and it work, for a while. till i was 16 and started drinking again and doing drugs. then the blackout came along .and that went on till i was 19 or 20.i started working as a roofer. still drinking doing drugs did that for about give or take. till i was 25.then get married have my son. and yea it work . i stop drinking as much as i did.and i stop the drugs. and 3 years go bye and we had another baby boy. yea that was fine.we move to nc and i started working for myself .things went really good for a long time . and then someone had some coke. and i go wow i havent done that in years.yea i can handle that no problem.well you know what happen next i start selling it .still working for myself doing my daily work.keeping the family feed everything they ever wanted and more ..but still not good enought for me i start doing it myself . drinking even more.well you know what happen next i lose jobs.i lose my family.. i lose everything i had. they went to fl .and i stay there getting everything in order .and i came down here to be with them.i didnt get my wife back. but i was able to spend time with my sons. yea i quit the drugs for 8 years now .but i was still drinking..so this is where we get to learn from our pass...so for now am not done i just started. to live.love...take everything i read and write and use it and make up my own way out.............so for now everyone have a great day..:thanks: :thanks:

[down2earth]

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Thanks for your story, very powerful. I am so happy you are able to spend time with your children.

[Accountable for Me]

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Thanks for sharing. I am happy you are turning your life around. It sucks when this disease (or substance abuse) ruins ones life. There is always hope - always hope!

[meditation mama]

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Thank you for taking the time to share your story with us.

You are starting a new chapter, one with such promise. I look forward to watching you grow, like your Pepper Plant!!

MM

[jupiter]

hi there..just say thanks...my life story

you were able to stop once you'll be able to do it again

[Deena]

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You can do it, never give up!

[Croft]

hi there..just say thanks...my life story

Hang in there!!!! We are all here for you!

[Janice]

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tlrgs, I am so glad you found MWO, stay close, you can do this... Janicexxx

[dexterhead]

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hey tlrgs: i've read most of your posts .. you have a really amazing story .... I am so happy things are coming together for you after what you've been through .. and you sound strong and determined. keep posting .. you make me think I can do it too!!!!