I stayed away yesterday... I have been trying like mad to keep myself busy and my mind off of drinking.... 5 days AF! This is the longest in a while! I received my Kudzu today, I just took some. Now when does the magical feeling start!? I know this is no miracle pill, but from what I've read about it I'm excited to see how I do with cravings. Because I still think about drinking EVERY SINGLE DAY! Some times every minute.
I am very proud tonight though, all day at work, I went back and forth...should I pick up a small bottle, or should I not... On the bus ride home, still debating.... I had cash in my wallet... a staple if I would be stopping at the liquor store.Got in the car at the park and ride, and was almost sweaty, I needed to make my decision. In the past when I have told myself no at the park and ride, it all turns to YES as soon as I drive by the liquor store. Not today! This will be the first Friday night since my drinking career started I won't be getting blitzed out of my mind, "since tomorrow is Saturday, and I don't have to work". I feel good and I can't wait to sleep in without a hangover. But I still want a drink right now.
I hope to chat with you guys this weekend! And welcome to all the NEWBIES. You already have tons of friends you didn't even know you had!
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