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LouieLoveHandles: Hellow Croft
SpencerFencer: Hi Corft
Croft: Hi there.
Croft: What is going on?
LouieLoveHandles: Not much
SpencerFencer: How are you?
Croft: Pretty Good, just got home.
SpencerFencer: How long you been a member?
Croft: A few weeks.
LouieLoveHandles: Good for you. Welcome to MWO.
LouieLoveHandles: I just finished up 90 days AF.
SpencerFencer: And I just finished up 63 and working on 90
SpencerFencer: How many AF days do you have Croft?
Croft: well, let?s see, there was Monday and Tuesday and umm, today was is Thursday, hmmm, 2.
LouieLoveHandles: Way to go Croft. That is great. I am sure you can get back on track and go the full 30 next time. We are routing for you.
Croft: Well, actually I am not planning to go a full 30 AF
SpencerFencer: Why not
Croft: Well, that is not my goal
SpencerFencer: Why not
Croft: because I am planning to moderate, like RJ did in her book. Did you read the book?
LouieLoveHandles: You have to go AF, you will feel great. Just after 30 days you feel so good. I just felt great after 30 days and after 90 you feel amazing, it is just wonderful.
Croft: I am feeling pretty good right now.
LouieLoveHandles: Yeah, but this is different. It is just amazing. I feel so good.
SpencerFencer: I feel good too. Better than I have ever felt in my life. I can?t wait to get to 90.
Croft: That is great. I am relly happy for you. That takes a lot of commitment. Congrats!!!
LouieLoveHandles: it is the only way I can go. I have to go AF. Or I canot stop.
Croft: I hear that some people are like that
LouieLoveHandles: all AL people are like that
Croft: I am not sure about that
LouieLoveHandles: it is true. I went to AA for 3 years.
Croft: did you read RJ?s book
LouieLoveHandles: you can go AF too croft. Are you taking the supplements?
Croft: yes
LouieLoveHandles: good, then you can do it. Are you taking any of the medication?
Croft: yes, the topo and it is really working out great for me.
Croft: it helps me to be allowed to enjoy a glass of wine with dinner Like on a Friday night. I like to be able to have that luxury in life.
Croft: If I can?t have that then it is almost worse for me. I almost want it more cause I can?t have it.
Croft: besides I want to enjoy some of the benefits of being alive.
SpencerFencer: you really can?t do that croft. You will just fall off the wagon again. You really should just drink water. You are going to just not be able to stop and drink the whole bottle
LouieLoveHandles: and that will be bad cause I have a sister who has a friend who died cause they were taking topo and drank wine.
Croft: oh my, how much wine did they drink.
LouieLoveHandles: 3 bottles
Croft: are you sure it was because they mixed wine and topo and not because they drown?
LouieLoveHandles: oh no it was because she mixed the wine and topo. So you cannot drink and take the topo. It is very bad
Croft: didn?t RJ drink wine while taking the topo in the book. Of course she did not that much
LouieLoveHandles: I did not read the book.
Croft: so no wine with dinner, you say.
SpencerFencer: you really should?nt. You really should go AF. At least for 30 days.
LouieLoveHandles: besides you are going to feel so good after you do that.
Croft: and no beer on the back deck on a hot summer afternoon after a long moutanin bike ride ? not even one?
LouieLoveHandles: you really should not croft. You have an issue. You have to be AF now.
Croft: I have an issue forever
LouieLoveHandle: yes you will always fight this. Read the posts. Everyone is always fighting this and you will too. You really have to go AF in order to be free of this demon.
Croft: and never again a glass of wine with dinner?
LouieLoveHandles: never again. You can do it! We are routing for you.
I clicked on the little x in the upper right hand corner of the screen and slumped off to bed. I had no desire to lay in the ?ham hock? that I would not mind laying in. I lay in bed thinking of life without a glass of wine every once in a while with dinner. Life without a beer, every once in a while in the backyard after a long mountain bike ride. I don?t want to be addicted, but I don?t want to be denied either. Will I always have to ride that escalator with no hope of ever being able to LIVE with the people who don?t have to ride the very pleasant escalator?
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