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**dexterhead** · February 12, 2008, 09:51 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Hey, SL, just try not to do it!!! you will feel worse tomorrow .., try to get over this hump my friend

**Not Happy Hour-Happy Life** · February 12, 2008, 09:53 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Straight Lines,

You can do whatever you want to tonight.... certainly your decision. But do you remember last Sunday?

It's five am on a sunday morning here, and I've just woken up (ugh, anyway) - today is two weeks of sobriety and I'm feeling pretty proud. I look at a month at a time as a big goal and to think I'm half way there makes me content.

Do you REALLY want to drink, or are you just full of anxious thoughts, and you want to whack them out of your mind?

You are irritable. You are woman. :heart:
Sometimes Irritable = Woman....
Sometimes Happiness = Woman.
Sometimes Achievement = Woman.
Sometimes Determination = Woman.
Sometimes Cabernet = Woman.

Fat, skinny? It's not that it doesn't matter, because it does. Eventually. Right now, you are jumping over one hurdle at a time, Straight Lines, and you are running on the track, jumping over drink after drink. So if you jump over the drinks... and run into a brownie or two.... well, you are still on the track, running.

Make it YOUR choice. Not mine. Not your husbands. Not "Al"s. YOURS.

Much love,

**Leebo** · February 12, 2008, 09:55 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

SL,

It sounds like to me you are trying to convince yourself it is OK to have a drink.. only you can make that decision, but if it was me and I had 18 days AF it would be a very difficult decision to go back to day one.

Why don't you give yourself some time? Drink something else.. do something else.. take your mind off of it for a while. The strong temptation may simply go away. If you are going to hate yourself tomorrow, tonight won't be worth it. Hang in there - you can do it!!

Leebo

**StraightLines** · February 12, 2008, 09:58 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

D I'm really trying to fight this urge, I really am!!!! The thing about tomorrow is that I dont get hangovers, so physically I wont feel so bad, but mentally - I dunno. I'm also (stupidly woe is me style) thinking tomorrow is Valentines Day and as I'm alone I should have someTHING to be with me and make me happy.

I'm really trying D, really trying

**StraightLines** · February 12, 2008, 10:02 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Patty, I dont know....I DO want a drink cos I do like the taste, I like the feeling.... I'm pretty agitated/bored and feel I deserve to feel good right now. I know what you are saying about drinking and weight loss - two things at once. I gave my first week to concentrating on not drinking - done. Second week to eat really well - done. Third week to exercise really really hard - not done. They ARE two big big things to conquer, I guess i'm just really bummed about the non weight loss.

Thanks for reminding me of my sunday post. I'm trying!!

xxx

**StraightLines** · February 12, 2008, 10:05 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Hey Leebo, thanks for your words.

They make sense.

I know one thing for sure I'll be pissed off with myself for not making 19 days. This is the mind game stuff though where I'm thinking if I just drink tonight it wont make an inch of difference to my life/weight loss and all I'll have is 0 as my number instead of 19...but then I think are numbers really that big a deal when I've given myself a bit of a break, gotten moderately healthy in the meantime....sigh.

I just, dunno. I have to go out later this afternoon and on the way home that is where I'll either come undone or stay rock solid.

**5thaday** · February 12, 2008, 10:08 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

StraightLines;271478 wrote:

. . . If I drink tonight I'll have a few, but I know I wont want to do it again and again and again full on each and every day...or will I? who knows!? Right now I feel I wont, but I am desperate to feel that calm happy buzz. . . Will I hate myself for being back to Day One again?

SL

That's usually what I say to myself after I've had a good string of AF days under my belt. In fact, I told myself this very same thing tonight after 13 days AF, so believe me, I know how you feel. However, I reminded myself that my resolve not to resume daily drinking simply never lasts- time and time again, I'm back to my old tricks. And as for hating myself for being back to Day One, historically that has been the case too. So ask yourself, is having a few drinks really worth it? A temporary albeit pleasant buzz versus your 18 days of AF accomplishment?

**Not Happy Hour-Happy Life** · February 12, 2008, 10:38 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Keep Trying, Straight Lines, keep trying!:l

At least you are honest- with everyone here, and with yourself. You want a drink!
On one hand......... on the other hand.............. I have a very dear friend that tells me ALL the time,
"Good things happen to those who are patient":h....
Be patient. Drink water, keep exercising, get rid of the sugars. In the last three weeks, you've set a path for your future,
you just have to be patient. :heart:

**Leebo** · February 12, 2008, 11:04 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

" This is the mind game stuff though where I'm thinking if I just drink tonight it wont make an inch of difference to my life/weight loss and all I'll have is 0 as my number instead of 19...but then I think are numbers really that big a deal when I've given myself a bit of a break, gotten moderately healthy in the meantime....sigh."

Oh, but there it is... it will make a difference - or you would not be "oh so stressing over it".

You have done an excellent job.. you are obviously being challenged!

Leebo

**Noelle** · February 12, 2008, 11:23 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Do you have any hard candy to suck on? Try that. Sometimes it works. Good luck!

**Ripple** · February 12, 2008, 11:36 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

These are the items that work for me when in need;

Crunch Bars
Cigarettes
Flavored Coffee
My Way Out Forums
Medications
Diet Soda
Fruit Bowls
Other Forums
AA Meetings
Other Drunks
The Maury Show
Sleeping
Talking to my Cats
Laundry
EAT
Altoid Mints
Music
CHAT

It can be done, work at it. You will see results....one day at a time.

~ripple~
:l

**tlrgs** · February 12, 2008, 11:38 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

hi there..straightlines...what ever happen you will make the right choice.i hope for best for you .be strong. go for that 19 days. good luck and we are here for you

**reallywannagothere** · February 12, 2008, 11:54 PM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Hi Straightlines

I'm right there with you tonight. Today is day nine for me, and I've been thinking wow, this is really great! I'm AL free for over a week for the first time in years. Taking aminos, additionsl L-Glut, Kudzu, & GABA, but the temptation hit me like a ton of bricks at work this evening. At one time I had already talked myself into stopping at the store, and pictured coming home and having to deal with my conscience tomorrow morning, because I really want to stay AF! I drove by each of the stores, saying out loud to myself.....You have a choice. Make the right one. I also prayed for strength. Thankfully, the ride home was just fifteen minutes, and I made it home AF. Have to admit, as soon as I got inside, I felt like I had to do something for the craving, so I ate four mini Almond Joy bars, and immediately took some GABA, Kudzu and L_Glut. Not sure if they are supposed to have an instant effect, but I feel better. (Maybe it was the candy bars)

I have read more here than written, and am learning that this is a very close knit, loving group of people, and I appreciate the opportunity to be a part of this. Thank you to all who have helped me and others. :thanks: :new:

**lookingforhope22** · February 13, 2008, 01:26 AM

Into temptation - I want to drink!

Dearest SL,

I read your post and can really relate to the mind chatting that is going on for you - I think everyone that is trying to change a long term habit wheather it be food,drugs,al, sex etc has the same chatter going on in the early stages that's why its so hard. You just want to block it out - relax feel good and happy and yes al does that but it is SHORT LIVED.

By the sounds of it the weight thing is contributing greatly, i remember you mentioning your concern about your weight in other posts. That will come off - you will wake up 1 day from now, 1 week from now 1 month from now and think wow I look great and I feel great - get past this hurdle do what ever you have to but don't pick up a drink.

Here is something I dug up for you it's called DECISION MAKING - our success in staying AF is all about this i believe.

SL this is for you I hope it will give you strength!! and i hope you read it before you go out this afternoon.

I decide to go beyond my present limited human-mind thinking. Yes, I can
When i care about my physical well-being, I select healthy, nutritious food to eat.
When i care about my mental and emotional well-being, I decide to choose thoughts that create a solid inner foundation for myself. One idle though does not mean very much, but thoughts that I think over and over are like drops of water: first there is a puddle, then a pond, thena a lake, then an ocean.
Repeated criticism and thoughts of lack and limitation drown my consciusness in a sea of negativity, while repeated thoughs of Truth and peace and love life me up so that i float on the ocean of life with ease. Thoughts that connect me with the oneness of life make it easier for me to make good decision and stick to them.
I am a decisive person. I will not let an addition take away the power from me.

Lots of love and courage your way - make the right decision for yourself!

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