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    Yesterday I left work early to go for a hike with my friend. I am helping her train for our climb up Mt Rainier in May. After the hike we went to a cozy restaurant to grab an appetizer. We happened to arrive at the establishment of choice right about the happy hour time and the bar area was packed. And it happened to be packed with pretty people. The up and coming males dressed in designer suits with a little black devices on their ears – they are only a couple of steps from the borg as far as I can tell. And they are smiling and joking with the women. The women have a similar version of the suit, only their’s is a slim black skirt and they can’t wear the black device on their ear as it does not match the small, but elegant pearl earrings. They hold a large glass of red wine. Oh the glass is not full of wine. It is only 1/3 full. That is how it is served, to get the full aroma and breathing, or whatever.
    I am making fun of them, but at the beginning of January I could have easily been in that crowd. Today I am with my friend and I am trying to figure out how I am going to look cool with a glass of water. Not only will I not be holding a fancy beverage but we just finished up a hike. My hair up in a sweaty ponytail and my eyes are still tearing from the cold wind. My cheeks are frosty red and my nose has not stopped running yet. We opt to sit in the restaurant instead of the bar area while we plan the rest of our training days for the month.
    This scene starts me thinking about a thought pattern I used to have. I remember going to events and wondering how people could survive if they did not serve the magic juice. I would go to a friend’s gathering, like a Tupperware party or something similar and if there was not wine or beer, I would wonder how everyone was getting by. I would go to the ballet and complain that the intermission was only 15 minutes. How am I supposed to stand in line, get my wine and drink it in 15 minutes? It somehow never occurred to me to not get the wine. No, I would stand in line, get the wine and then chug it. This seemed perfectly rationale to me. It got so bad I started to wonder how the movie theaters got away with not serving alcohol. Once at a baby shower I was shocked that there was only juice, milk and water being served. I did not say anything, but inside, I could not believe it. Looking back, I am shocked at my thought patterns. But I am comforted too. My thought patterns are changing. I was happily comfortable, even proud to sit with my friend drinking water while we talked about Mt. Rainier. Yes, I am changing.

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    Love this post.
    Enough is enough

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      #3
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      yes you are and you really have every single reason to be happy for that thats a picture in your mind now you need to translate into action, can you? am soo happy for you.

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        #4
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        what would we do without you!?

        Love it Croft, I am just sitting here at work waiting for a meeting, read your post...............what would we do without you?? I love your posts!!!!!!!!!!!
        :H :thanks:

        MA:h
        :rays:My happiness is my greatest gift to others:rays:eace:

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          Hi croft so pleased to read your account and extrememly pleased with your change, mega pat on the back and very ironic as I have just dashed on here to post how my thought patterns are changing will try to keep it brief as I am mad busy getting ready for my valentine dinner with my new partner ( its been 8 months ) . well here what happened my boss is going on vaction for a couple of months so he is really up the wall today generally upseting people, he has said a couple of things to me today and just as I was leaving he wanted me to do a job i asked if it could wait ( I needed to dash and get a new dress !! well it is valentines day ) he asked where was my commitment ?? so I stoppped did the job and then said I was going. He then made a comment which really upset me. Any way I dashed out got the dress but his comment really got to me I know I am being over sensitive ( one of my fault and I should be old enough to bat silly comments off ) so i then queued for the bus home and while i was sitting on the bus ( why does public transport always smell of urine yuk not nice ) I was mulling things over and feeling a bit sorry for myself and I thought oh he has really upset me I will get a bottle of wine to cheer myself up !! But then I had this lightbulb moment """" oh my god ! thats what I do if somebody upsets me and like I said thats pretty easy I reach for a drink to make myself feel better !!!. But this afternoon I did not do that I marched straight past the off licenece like a women posessed, possessed with the desire to share this revalation with my mwo family . And the more I think about it the more real that trigger is and I have done that so many times it would have been real easy to get a bottle of wine by the time my boyfriend came to get me I would be drunk and once in the resturant i would just get drunker and spoil the whole night probably being mean to him because somebody had been mean to me and what should be the most romantic night of the year would be anything but . BUT not this time I really think I am changing , I feel quite tearful . We can change DD xx

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            #6
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            Croft,

            Isn't it funny that you look at your past life and know how happy you thought you were? Then you get AF and you realize how happy you really are. God...how did we all get here?
            Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

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              well gabby contray to what people who don't have a poblem with alchol think we did not ask to get here it just creaps up on us we are sick not bad and we are brave coming on here posting threads sharing our inner most thoughts and feelings giving and receiving support not judging anybody, perhaps in a mad way we are the lucky one !! keep up the good work

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                reminds me of one of my rules

                "5. Talking to perfect strangers all day long, telling them things you cannot even tell your own relatives and friends who love and adore you and make time for you each day is a perfectly rationale thing to do. It is a healthy way for you to recover in the privacy of your own world. "

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                  #9
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                  great job daisy!!!!!!

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                    #10
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                    Hi Croft,
                    Jealous of your hike. I am recovering from "womens" stuff and am really anemic. I love to hike and run in the woods. yeah I have friends who don't drink and have had no alcohol events and my "other" friends were appalled and had to make a packy run. its amazing how we change.
                    rudemama

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                      #11
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                      YEAH!!

                      "5. Talking to perfect strangers all day long, telling them things you cannot even tell your own relatives and friends who love and adore you and make time for you each day is a perfectly rationale thing to do. It is a healthy way for you to recover in the privacy of your own world. "

                      I was just sitting here thinking of things to say................

                      In your own words Croft, love them!!

                      MA:h :l
                      :rays:My happiness is my greatest gift to others:rays:eace:

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                        I had funny thought driving home from my NEW Business venture today. Since it literally takes up all my time, I thought "well, I guess I'll never have time to get drunk again" and then I thought..who cares? I went out for Valentine's Day last night with my husband because Wednesday is date night (no kids). He took me to a really fancy place. I decided to try and moderate and limit myself to two glasses of wine. I had ONE! I'm freaking myself out here!! It feels great to change.
                        It's personal, myself and I, we've got some straightening out to do. And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket but I've got to get a move on with my life.
                        It's time to be a big girl now....

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                          IKnow - That is fantastic!!! I always wonder about you on Wednesday nights now. Sounds like change is in the wind!

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                            #14
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                            Thanks for thinking of me Croft...I wish I had more time to post. I've been reading when I get a chance and it's been helping me stay on track. I love all you guys!!
                            It's personal, myself and I, we've got some straightening out to do. And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket but I've got to get a move on with my life.
                            It's time to be a big girl now....

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                              #15
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                              Hi Croft. You are right the supps are amazing. The water is helping too. Your upcoming hike sounds wonderful. You rock. Miso

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