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[tlrgs]

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hi there... croft...good job i am proud of you . love the post. you sound so strong .and keep it up

[Suki411]

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Croft, your posts are wonderful, but they always seem like you know what we need to read at the present time.

I am 17day AF today. Something that I never thought I'd see. Since my mother passed away, and I've been dealing with everything, the easiest thing was to come home have a drink or two and go to bed.

I now come home, look at the chaos and start working. I want order in my life in order to enjoy my life.

There was a poem a friend of mine wrote:

No, you cannot possibly come in today,
the gate is closed, the house is not in order.

This is how I've felt until the last two weeks. I'm getting my house in order. It makes me so happy!

[StraightLines]

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Well done Croft, I can relate to all that exactly. Every function buisness or social was all about 'well what sort of drink will there be, and can we have it straight away' type thinking. My mind must have changed now because 1. I dont think that anymore and 2. It doesnt make sense to think like that!
Good luck on your big hike in May, I have a big one in August - I've made it August because I am presuming by then I'll be a hella lot healthier!

Suki - I am in total agreeance about the environment needing to be in order for your own self to be. Now I'm feeling so much more together I'm on a clean up fest! It's almost on par to nesting. I really believe my house represents the state of mind I'm in - it's a fact.

[Working Girl]

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Croft,

What an amazing writer you are! I can not tell you how many times I dumped back a $10 glass of wine (in a fancy plastic cup) during an intermission just because I didn't wanted to waste the few minutes without seizing a chance to to buzz a little.

I'm so happy to see my life relfected in what you have written. I'm so new here and still learning.

I'm feeling better with every post I get a chance to read.

[FinallyRN]

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Croft, I think we are sisters separated at birth. I use to BRING the wine to the babyshower!
I have been working this program since Jan 1st..............joined a month before and just posted and read. I too can see the changes which I never thought possible. Before I'd look at the posers in their suits because they could drink and not have a problem......I was so jealous and envious. Now I look, and I just see posers. My mental health has improved to the point where I believe my depression was caused by AL. Just being 2 weeks AF convinced me of that. I have been jogging on the beach consistantly since Jan.......and we're only in Feb..........hell, are you ready for how obnoxious I'm going to get? It brought a smile to my face, while in Spain, having lunch and I ordered Agua con gas with my lunch, and I was OK with it. I constantly need to remind myself that there is life without wine and its a pretty good one. Need to experience more milestones in my life AF.
Thanks for all your posts

[meditation mama]

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WOW.. you guys are doing amazing!

Life without wine... if anyone would have told me there was one, I would have thought them obnoxious, ignorant and certainly uncouth. To even think of not having wine at a baby shower was unthinkable for me, even pregnant. Although I didn't drink at mine, I couldn't belive people would want to sit through any such thing without wine, so I had plenty. To go to a bar and not have wine - unthinkable. To not have a beer after a hike, now way, it was a reward. To not have wine in Italy, why go? All of these things were absolutes in my head, not points for debate. I would argue with my therapist these exact examples (me rant, her sit and smile). I would never say never to alcohol, how could I with these occasions looming in my future? She would just say, "exactly, how could you", as only therapists do.

Well, what do you know... Not only is it possible, it is more rewarding that I ever thought possible. To be at an intermission and actually socialize, talk to people, not rush for the line. To exercise and enjoy that natural high instead of waiting for the self-induced one (love that!). To go grocery shopping and take my time, not rush home so I could indulge in my purchases. To sit at an amazing coffee shop while travelling, taking in everything, not hiding in a winebar, or planning my trip around drinking. There is so much to see..

I am also amazed at how many feelings are blossoming. Many of which have been hibernating for years, maybe my whole life. Good and bad... ebb and flow.

So, congratulations to all of us. We deserve all of this and more. Keep on going, my friends.

Life is wonderful...

Namaste,

MM