Trying to Find my Funny Bone

[Cinders]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

What really scares me is the difference between how I felt this morning (really up and good) and how I felt this afternoon after my mom gave me the "if you loved me you would never drink again" lecture.

I guess I realized AL really has a huge hold on me.

Sorry guys.

Still want to find my funny bone...

Love,
Cindi

[secondchance]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

Cindi...don't let your mom guilt you out of anything. We all wish our desire to drink wasn't so strong. I don't know your Mom, but can you let her know how hurtful her words were? Please remain positive, if she hasn't been in your shoes she can't understand. Much the same way Croft's hubby can't. Words are just that, words. And we all know, actions speak louder than words. Right now, you have to work on you and in doing so that will help Adrienne. Please let her words go and keep on your sobriety path. I will walk along with you. Hugs..t.

[tlrgs]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

hi there ..croft. hope everything works out for you ..they say when you hit rock bottom. you wont even know you hit it until everything is gone .so take the time you have to think of anyways you can change. but you have to do it for yourself.no one change you . you are the only one........good luck...and keep on posting..... stay busy

[greeneyes]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

Cindi...that's just wrong for your mom to say the "if you loved me you would...." Not to be critical of your mom, but guilt does just not help us here. It makes me worse. Pile on the guilt may as well mean have another bottle. Maybe it would be helpful for your mom to see a councelor to understand how to really help you.

[Cinders]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

Greeneyes, Tkeene,

My mom is 84 years old. A counselor is just not in the equation.

She was and is a great mom. Guilt is her thing.

I know this. Everything is driven by true love. It is all she knows.

She loves me more than anything. She calls me every morning to make sure I am okay. Can you imagine that? Every morning? At 84 years old?

Can you imagine the guilt I feel from that?

I am really down today guys.

Really down.

Sorry.

Love,
Cindi

[greeneyes]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

I decided to delete my post.

[Croft]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

CaptJBean;273555 wrote: Croft,
I'm trying to think outside the box... and think like a former therapist of mine.
In my way of thinking, you set yourself up when you bought a romantic week-end for two at a Casino. Far to soon to be in a "drinking" atmosphere after just giving up alcohol. Also to be alone with someone who is so obviously one of your biggest critics. I think you sub-consciencely - or consciencely sabotaged the week end by drinking on the 12th so you wouldn't have to go.

try the cognitive thinking... ABC on Albert Ellis or Smart

REBT Network: Albert Ellis | Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy

That's just what I'm thinking. It doesn't make me right....

I made the reservations in December before I joined MWO. So I did not know that I would be starting on this journey. I decided to keep them as the casino has always been the one place that I don't drink. I don't like to play poker and drink because I don't like to lose my money. So the casino has always been sort of a safe zone when it comes to my drinking.
Also, not sure that I should not be alone with my husband, even though he may be my biggest critic.

[Not Happy Hour-Happy Life]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

Crofty, I'm of the opinion that you need to drive to the resort and crash the one man party.

You guys need to rent a romper room and settle this like two teenagers.

With hickeys. Or mufflers. Or curling irons.

Just have lotion, whipped cream, and ice near the bed.

Like you said in your new thread, you "mean it" now. So go mean it.

[Noelle]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

N.O.!!!!!!!!!

[Croft]

Trying to Find my Funny Bone

Hubby is on his way home!!! And I think I feel makeup sex in the wind!