I have been moping around my life since Tuesday night and I am now through. I am done. Time to get back to it. Life is short and I have given enough to the moping monsters. Be gone you moping demons from hell!
I spent the last hour reflecting on my life since the 18th of January and it was quite revealing. Before MWO I was drinking in the morning, drinking at lunch, drinking in the afternoon and drinking in the evening. I was drinking beer, vodka, wine, rum and whisky. I was drinking while I painted, drinking while I cooked, while I read, while I gardened, while I sewed and while I drove. I drank when we went out for dinner and while I did just about everything else. I was always on the lookout for opportunities to drink.
Now, post MWO, I can go 2 to 3 days with no drinks at all. It has been over 2 weeks, maybe even 3 now, since I drank in the morning. I think it has been that long since I have drank before 5 in the afternoon. And other than my slip last Tuesday I have not had more than 2 glasses of red wine in one day in the last couple of weeks. So in 4 weeks I have gone from drinking all day long to hardly drinking at all, other than maybe a couple of glasses of wine with dinner; the big exception being Tuesday night.
Now I have taken a lot of heat over that one Tuesday night. But I have taken the last of the heat. I AM DONE! I am going to celebrate all the other nights since the 18th of January that I was successful in my quest. I know that there have been more successful nights than unsuccessful and that will be my focus as I move into my week. Alone or with the people who love me, either way. Because this quest is not for them, but for me. It is I who has found my "mean-it" voice. It is I who must meet this challenge and come out the survivor. Onward and upward!
I spent the last hour reflecting on my life since the 18th of January and it was quite revealing. Before MWO I was drinking in the morning, drinking at lunch, drinking in the afternoon and drinking in the evening. I was drinking beer, vodka, wine, rum and whisky. I was drinking while I painted, drinking while I cooked, while I read, while I gardened, while I sewed and while I drove. I drank when we went out for dinner and while I did just about everything else. I was always on the lookout for opportunities to drink.
Now, post MWO, I can go 2 to 3 days with no drinks at all. It has been over 2 weeks, maybe even 3 now, since I drank in the morning. I think it has been that long since I have drank before 5 in the afternoon. And other than my slip last Tuesday I have not had more than 2 glasses of red wine in one day in the last couple of weeks. So in 4 weeks I have gone from drinking all day long to hardly drinking at all, other than maybe a couple of glasses of wine with dinner; the big exception being Tuesday night.
Now I have taken a lot of heat over that one Tuesday night. But I have taken the last of the heat. I AM DONE! I am going to celebrate all the other nights since the 18th of January that I was successful in my quest. I know that there have been more successful nights than unsuccessful and that will be my focus as I move into my week. Alone or with the people who love me, either way. Because this quest is not for them, but for me. It is I who has found my "mean-it" voice. It is I who must meet this challenge and come out the survivor. Onward and upward!
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