Complacency?

[cke123]

Good evening everyone!

I had an revelation earlier today. I don't think that I have been taking this MWO program seriously. Actually, I know that I haven't. I do well for awhile, then I get lazy and complacent.
I am not going to beat myself up about it-but damn..when am I going to get it? Do I have to have a panic attack every single day for it to sink in? Was sucking down 12 beers THAT fun? (yes)

I need a plan, and I need to stick to the program. Aren't I worth it?

E

[sickandtired32]

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I am just starting out but what I can say and offer you is YES YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!!

S&T32

[dexterhead]

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Hi E! I am with you , my friend. So sick of doing this to myself!! And yes, you are I and ARE worth it!!!!!:h

[cke123]

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thanks! I think so too!

You are too!

[Masquerade]

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cke -
You certainly ARE worth it!! Complacency will bite you in the butt ... it did to me this past week. And I won't lie ... I had a LOT of fun with the Voddy. But when I put everything to the scale, the balance was on the "not-so-fun" side ... remorse over blackouts and the terror of not being able to remember WHAT I needed to apologize for/and to whom.

The weight gain ... the sick stomach and memory stutters the day after .... NOT SO FUN!

Hang in there, my friend. We are going to beat this hellish bastard together!

- Masq xoxo

[Noelle]

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Yes, you're worth it and don't even think that you're not!

[tlrgs]

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hi there...cke123.. we were chatting earlier . the best thing you can do is just take it one day at a time .. keep on reading and posting your questions. and take it easy. and you want to change. you are the only one that can do it for yourself. and we are here for you . so best of luck to you

[cke123]

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thanks for the unending supply of positive feedback! I love you guys!

I think that we (i) can throw out every excuse in the book about why tomorrow is a better day to stop drinking, but I am not going to anymore. I don't care what friend is coming into town, I dont care if dinner would be more fun with wine. Screw it.

Im done

[Guest]

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Yayyyy cke. Here`s to being done with drink.........onwards and upwards!!!! :l

Starlight Impress x

[Croft]

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Everyone on this site is WAY WORTH IT!!!

[down2earth]

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Wow, cke, you couldn't have posted a better topic for me to relate to. I was on my way to lunch with my family after about 5 days of heavy drinking for sun up to sun down. So you can imagine how shitty I was feelings. I took some codene thinking it would take the edge off. Bad idea. I thought I was dying! Well, I was trying very hard not to drink, but I wanted to SO badly! In the middle of the restaurant I had the worst panic attack! I had to be taken by ambulance to the hospital! I knew that I needed to be honest, but it was tough. I started crying and revealed that I CAN'T stop drinking! The doctor and all the nurses were so supportive and I am to follow up with an addiction specialist. I am very excited to be getting help and I am ready to take my life back.

I am having a serious withdrawal right now, and I have flashes of my drunken behavior, that are keeping me wondering what I could have possibly done.

So anyway cke, thanks for this post. it was exactly what I needed. You are not alone in this struggle!

[tea]

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Aaargh, morning all. Oh thank you for that post, reminding me of how awful it is to wake up with that dreaded, horrible, heart sinking feeling of wondering who I insulted, fell out with, what I promised the night before - yeuch.... We are all soooo worth not having that feeling every damn day. Onwards we go ..... together.

Lx

[cke123]

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Hi Down to Earth-

I am so sorry that happened to you, but I bet it was a releif somewhat, right? To finally be honest about needing help...And in an ambulance..no one could even give you shit!! Sorry for making a joke!

I have terrible panic attacks. When I was in college I drove myself to the emergency room twice. All this crap in our heads.....it's toxic. Just as bad as the drinking. It is getting so f-ing old. I am still panicking from SATURDAY. Jeez. They do go away though, but then inevitably, the drinking comes back, and then you get ANOTHER panic attack cause you forget how shitty they are.

Well, we can't change yesterday..but we can make damn sure that we don't repeat the pattern, right?

[ThuzzyQ]

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This is a good post! I too feel like heck this am. Sitting at work with a major hangover from a weekend full of beer and vodka. I was shaking so bad this a.m. it took me three times as long to put on my eye makeup! Now this is what I call fun?!? I'm starting today my AF, I thought I would start yesterday but of course had beer left over so off I went! I know I'll suffer a few days of withdrawl but I'm prepared. So hang in there, we are all worth it and we just all need to stay here for support and reassurance!

[retteacher]

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MWO is such a great place to process our thoughts & feelings...that is, instead of numbing everything out. Give it a chance. Mary