Hi everyone,
By this time last weekend I was pretty much knee deep in a bottle of vodka(the second bottle) . I really paid dearly for it last Monday @ work. I think the hangover that I endured that day was really a form of torture. Constant trips to the bathroom to wake myself up, vomiting, the works. I really thought I was going to have some kind of seizure at my desk. I had a little slip on Friday but the rest of the weekend was strictly tea and water, sups, and nutritious meals. I can't tell you how good I feel today as compared to most Sundays and look at that...... no depressed feelings, dread or anxiety...... oh, did I leave out the god awful vomiting and pounding heart and head. I think this site is rubbing off on me.
I have been a weekend binger in some form or another for about 20 years now. During the week I have no use for it. It is very strange, when the weekend comes lookout....I am amazed to this point in my life that I am first still on the planet, and second never got myself into any type of trouble because of my drinking.....I simply don't have any use for it anymore.....All the reasons that I used to drink simply do not apply now. I have a wonderful marriage and nothing to complain about (well for the most part.) It is really time to slay this dragon. The fact that it is such a learned behavior is the hardest thing to shake. I would like the next half of my life to be free of this poison....I have already experience the toxic side of life. I just realize that it is one...minute...hour....day...month... at a time. That is why it is like climbing my personal Mt. Everest. ( I know that is a bit dramatic but those of you how know how bad it can be can relate.)
I wish everybody on this journey the best of luck and good health...
By this time last weekend I was pretty much knee deep in a bottle of vodka(the second bottle) . I really paid dearly for it last Monday @ work. I think the hangover that I endured that day was really a form of torture. Constant trips to the bathroom to wake myself up, vomiting, the works. I really thought I was going to have some kind of seizure at my desk. I had a little slip on Friday but the rest of the weekend was strictly tea and water, sups, and nutritious meals. I can't tell you how good I feel today as compared to most Sundays and look at that...... no depressed feelings, dread or anxiety...... oh, did I leave out the god awful vomiting and pounding heart and head. I think this site is rubbing off on me.
I have been a weekend binger in some form or another for about 20 years now. During the week I have no use for it. It is very strange, when the weekend comes lookout....I am amazed to this point in my life that I am first still on the planet, and second never got myself into any type of trouble because of my drinking.....I simply don't have any use for it anymore.....All the reasons that I used to drink simply do not apply now. I have a wonderful marriage and nothing to complain about (well for the most part.) It is really time to slay this dragon. The fact that it is such a learned behavior is the hardest thing to shake. I would like the next half of my life to be free of this poison....I have already experience the toxic side of life. I just realize that it is one...minute...hour....day...month... at a time. That is why it is like climbing my personal Mt. Everest. ( I know that is a bit dramatic but those of you how know how bad it can be can relate.)
I wish everybody on this journey the best of luck and good health...
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