Hi there
This is my 2nd day off the booze - :rollin
It's going absolutely fine thanks to a big help from a little friend called Librium.
It is my 6th attempt at giving up - 3 times on the Lib and 2 without. I was drinking 4 bottles of white winea day which had gradually crept up on me - sometimes even opening a 5th. It was getting completely out of hand. I would drink as soon as i woke up, hardly being able to open the bottle cos hands shaking so much - then the first sip was always followed by about 20 minutes of retching. i didn't feel 'normal' until about 3pm in the afternoon. The problem was - that I was so scared of withdrawals, and my doctor had said that he would not give me librium again, so I tried it again on my own going cold turkey. After 4 days of not sleeping and throwing up - I started hearing 'proper' voices and seeing strange psychadelic coloured wormy things coming towards me - in broad daylight !! :rolleyes
I was hospitalised for 3 days and given - yep - librium. So I have put off giving up because of this. So at the end of my tether I begged the doc the day before yesterday and I have been absolutely fine - Hoorah.
I lost my driving licence 3 yrs ago and consequently my job. So I have been sitting in the house with my 'best friend' - that's how it masquerades. Giving up before was futile, because there was no light at the end because nothing was going to change. I got my licence back in June, and now this is GOING to be THE time !!!!
I just wanted to say to everyone - don't give up - I know it's only my second day but reading this site and all of the inspiring stories which I can relate to I feel really confident. I hate the idea of standing up in front of a bunch of people - scares me to death. But this has provided a perfect forum to learn more about recovery and gain some support.
Thanks to everyone here
Bambino xxx
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This is my 2nd day off the booze - :rollin
It's going absolutely fine thanks to a big help from a little friend called Librium.
It is my 6th attempt at giving up - 3 times on the Lib and 2 without. I was drinking 4 bottles of white winea day which had gradually crept up on me - sometimes even opening a 5th. It was getting completely out of hand. I would drink as soon as i woke up, hardly being able to open the bottle cos hands shaking so much - then the first sip was always followed by about 20 minutes of retching. i didn't feel 'normal' until about 3pm in the afternoon. The problem was - that I was so scared of withdrawals, and my doctor had said that he would not give me librium again, so I tried it again on my own going cold turkey. After 4 days of not sleeping and throwing up - I started hearing 'proper' voices and seeing strange psychadelic coloured wormy things coming towards me - in broad daylight !! :rolleyes
I was hospitalised for 3 days and given - yep - librium. So I have put off giving up because of this. So at the end of my tether I begged the doc the day before yesterday and I have been absolutely fine - Hoorah.
I lost my driving licence 3 yrs ago and consequently my job. So I have been sitting in the house with my 'best friend' - that's how it masquerades. Giving up before was futile, because there was no light at the end because nothing was going to change. I got my licence back in June, and now this is GOING to be THE time !!!!
I just wanted to say to everyone - don't give up - I know it's only my second day but reading this site and all of the inspiring stories which I can relate to I feel really confident. I hate the idea of standing up in front of a bunch of people - scares me to death. But this has provided a perfect forum to learn more about recovery and gain some support.
Thanks to everyone here
Bambino xxx
:d
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