ODAT - Thursday

[Bessie]

That's better! Back in my 'rightful' place! :H I'm even late up this morning - it's nearly 7am and the sun is up on a frosty morning. Hubby's home, which means I'll have even less time to get a fix on here and we have soooooooo much to do over the next few days (probably including dealing with baby pigs!)

Before he arrived home I was really content with my bottle of AF wine - he bought home the real thing and I did swap but was very content to moderate (also very tired). I am feeling more settled and that really helps. If I'm fraught Al can find a chink in my armour too easily.

Somebody was asking about Al free wine - here in the UK I got mine from a company called LoNo (I think) - Google it. Have to buy 6 bottles but they are really not bad at all - had reds so far. They may be a crutch but no more than having tonic, ice and a slice to make you feel like you're having a G&T if that's your tipple. I make no apologies. I take my help where I can!!

I'm taking it ODAT. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose but overall I am here and I am always working on it.

Love and luck to all to come.

Bessie xxxxx

[socky]

ODAT - Thursday

Morning all! A cold, dull but dry day. I have 3 days AF under my belt. This site is a godsend! I was on and off here all day yesterday, especially between 6-9pm. It got me through.

Bessie, congratulations on being able to moderate, even if your own personal goal is to abstain, I think any night you drink and don't get drunk should still be considered a win.

Apparently night 4 is really tough, so I might be brave enough to enter chat this evening.

[Janice]

ODAT - Thursday

Morning everyone, well its afternoon now....I know, I know I'm late!!!! Couldn't get on this morning as husband was on the computer. Well done Bessie on moderation last night and Socky great stuff with the 3 AF days. You're right to stay close to MWO during those "witching hours".

I did last night at tea time but our internet provider is playing up and its so slow at that time of the day. I had my first AF day yesterday for a couple of weeks and feel good, really positive. We're going to a wedding do tomorrow and I've told my husband I'll drive.

May not get on as much over the next few days as my daughter is home today from uni for Mother's Day on Sunday and my mum-in-law is coming to stay which means I won't get as much "me" time. I'll do my best though!!!!!!!!!!!

love and best wishes to everyone today......Janicexxx

[cowgal]

ODAT - Thursday

good morning!/ afternoon!

Hi there Bessie, Socky and Janice...............you all sound so together this morning! Bessie, moderating well, Socky GREAT job on day 3, :goodjob:stick around and get more time, it DOES get easier, then hard, then easier..............etc...........I intend to stick around and w/ the help of AA in the evening WHEN I WANT TO GO TO A MEETING, not "because I have to go to a meeting"(dont' know if anyone gets what I am talking about, but in the past I have always followed the advice to "go to a meeting every day for 90 days...." That stressed me out to the point of needing a drink!!!uch:

Anyway, Janice, sounds awesome that you got through your first AF day in a while!!! Keep up the good work, I know you can do it, sometimes just getting that 1st day is doing it!!

Everyone yet to come and all you guys, have a great day!!!!:wavin:

Lots of Love,

MA

[Cinders]

ODAT - Thursday

Back to day one. :-(

Good morning ODATers,

I am back to day one. Had a horrible idiotic lapse yesterday and I am so angry with myself!!

I am going to doctor on Monday. I am asking for Antabuse. I have got to remove the option of drinking from my life.

Hope everyone else has a great day today and I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY!!

Love,
Cindi

[cowgal]

ODAT - Thursday

smart move

Cindi, Antabuse is a smart move, I know a few people who have taken it...............JUST don't drink while taking it as it could land you in the hospital!! I am sure you know that being here so long, it has been said before...............that is why I am soooooooo scared to take it!!! I am on Campral (which I don't think worked til I went AF, now I have NO DESIRE ...............forgot to take it Sunday and obsessed about drinking all afternoon, didn't figure it out til Monday,that is was the case!)

Good to see you so determined!!:goodjob:

MA:h:h

[4theboyz]

ODAT - Thursday

Day - Snake Eyes

I'm still here and wishing everyone a great ODAT!

Enjoy the day folks!
:groupluv:

[universal]

ODAT - Thursday

Hey everyone,

Cin - sorry to hear you lapsed - I have been struggling the past couple of weeks myself - I am sick of this, sick of feeling like crap when I wake up - sick of all of this! I know it is time to get some more AF days under my belt and that is my plan..........I am starting, no more, I need to get this beast out of my life!!!!!

Okay, that felt good to say!

Hope everyone has a great day,
Love and Hugs,
Uni

[cowgal]

ODAT - Thursday

good for you!!!!

Uni, great to hear you soooooooooo over it!! That is what it took for me 11 days ago (well actually 12 I guess!?)

4theboyz, GOOD JOB ................day 11 w/ me too!! Let's ride this wave and keep on going no matter what!! I feel bad today though, my back is KILLING me (just figured that out..........and used to be a reason to drink!!??) NOT TODAY!!!:no:

Go everyone, ODAT!!! Remember that, only today we have to worry about , right!?!:wd:

Love,:h

Mary Anne

[FinallyRN]

ODAT - Thursday

Good morning. Its another beautiful day in Southern California.......80 degress hehehehehe!
Not Bessie farm eh!? Sorry Bessie

All is well. I decided yesterday I'm going to try and string together 30 days AF. Up to this point I have done fairly well moderating but I want a clean slate and need 30 days to decide where I want to go. Its funny, before I was scared to death about living without my "friend" but since being here and having periods of AF and a few nights of just 2 glasses......( OK, AND a few f--k ups ) I realize I'll survive without it, and socializing does exist without it. I've also gotten more practice saying to my friends, " No, I don't want any wine tonight". Something I was so scared of muttering before. Terrified of being labeled an alcoholic.........( Like they didn't know I had a problem already!)
So here goes, Day 2..........Stay strong all of you, we need each other.
Cindi, do what you have to
Cowgirl, I have been following your progress. You should be proud.
Socky, I'll be looking for you on chat
Janice, Hi! You go girl!

[OverIt2007]

ODAT - Thursday

Good day ODAT'ers. Tommorrow will be one week since I had a drink. Last Friday I was working (at a very upscale country club, not a dump) and I decided to sneak a few drinks while working. I've done it sooo many times before, its so easy to do. Anyway, I ended up soo shit faced, I was almost in a blackout. As luck would have it, my boss was not told, and I still have my job. That scare of last Friday has kept me sober. If I would have lost my job, I would have lost everything, including the new home I have worked my fingers to the bone to have! Sometimes we really do need a "wake up" call, and I pray this was mine. It has to be!

[cowgal]

ODAT - Thursday

great!!

overit!! Great job, that "losing your job" thing is a real scare!! I am so happy for you, it does get better, I am sooooooo much happier this week than last.............keep up the good work!!:yougo:

MA:h

[rustop61]

ODAT - Thursday

Hi everyone

Am late logging in today. Just back from the hospital. I might have mentioned that I have a cousin who has been staying with me the last year and a half while having chemo. Well, she is in the final stages, the cancer is spreading rapidly. She is in a lot of pain at the moment. Have spent the last few hours, talking, crying and walking with her. She is only 35 so its not easy to accept. All we can do is take it ODAT.

With all this on my mind Al has taken a bit of a back seat but I know that I have to be vigalent as stress is one of my triggers.

Rustop

[cowgal]

ODAT - Thursday

sad!

Rustop, sorry I didn't know that, brought a tear to my eye, you are very special to do what you are doing, and w/o AL!! I am truly inspired.................:l:l

MA:h:h

[OverIt2007]

ODAT - Thursday

Thank you Cowgal. I was also too humiliated to admit I had also drove home that night, after picking up my 3 year old son from his care providers. I have to be honest here. The job loss would have been devistating, but if I ever did anything to my son, I would have no reason to be on this planet. The real scare is that I could have hurt my precious little person who I love more than anything else in this world. I love him so, how could I endanger him like that. Im so ashamed of that. If I lost my son, I would die myself. Its my choice. Happiness or Death. I hope those of you struggling like I am never do anything to endanger your loved ones.