I have been here before but it has been a while.
Just a question about social drinking. Dont' know what to do anymore. When l am at home l seem to be able to moderate my drinking. My husband and l will share a bottle of wine over the weekend. But each time l meet up with friends for dinner l always seem to go overboard. My husband and l didn't drink for the entire month of Feb, and we felt very good and healthy, and then just yesterday we went out for lunch to our friends house, and l ended drinking to excess, even though l really didn't feel like it. I had 2 glasses of champange and thought to myself, this is enough for me, l felt good and in control, and then l saw another huge glass of beautiful white wine, and just automatically kept drinking and from there, my glass was always full and l just kept drinking, until l collapsed and starting being quiet ill, and all this was in front of my 2 little girls. I felt so bad today, vowing to myself to never drink again, and that it wasn't worth it. What kind of a mother am l. Feeling pretty bad all. I thought l had control over my drinking now that l have a month off. I didn't have any social engagments during Feb, as l didn't want to tempt myself to drink so l stayed home, which l must say l thoroughly enjoyed. But l can't do this forever. Eventually l will need to go out, but how can l trust myself to not drink too much and feel so bad the next day? The weird thing is, l don't even feel like drinking, so why do l do it? Maybe l worry what others will think. But all of my friends are very sensible drinkers. I always end up drinking much more than them. I told my husband l wanted to quiet for good, and he keeps saying that isn't the long term answer, and what l need to do is to just learn to moderate. But l am not so sure l can do that? Can anyone make any suggestions as to what will be the best for me to do? I just dont' want this to ever, ever happen again.
This Friday night we are going out for dinner with friends and l am so nervouse. I said l would drive so l cannot drink too much, but l have said that before and it has never worked. The way l feel at the moment l dont' want to drink at all ever, but this will probably change as l get over my hangover. The thing is will l ever learn? I am 36 year old mother is exercises and eats healthy and completely loves her family to death, but l just can't seem to fix this stupid problem of excessive alcohol in social situations. I was even thinking of not allowing myself to drink around social situations at all, and only allow myself to drink at home. Not sure if this would work.
I can see how alcohol can ruin so much and l want to stop.
Snez:H::boohoo:
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