Hi...I am new again. I had great amount of success with MWO last june...but hit some bumps along the road...felt too confident, forgot supps, stopped posting and wella....back home where i started. I don't feel embarrasssed or ashamed, but just know what i have to do to get back. Depression is part of my life. But happiness also makes me want to drink.
Lately I had a lot of good things happen to me and thus, made me want to drink more...can you figure that out? I feel like i am falling apart again just to make these good things go away...i think this is called self-sabatoge. Have gone to many therapists to know what i am doing...but still do. You can tell i am fed up?
Can't get the nerve to talk to my new boyfriend because he is now clean and sober and he thinks i have a "manageable" drinking problem...i am good at hiding it. I don't want to lose this man, or myself again...I feel it coming on. I won't survive it again...I don't want to live if i am going to be controlled by alchohol anymore.
It is at the point where i get sick if i don't drink again. I don't have two or three days off in a row to get throught the detox...I do in a couple of weeks though. I just want to be back in this community because it has saved my life before...I want to be able to share and help again:thanks:
Lately I had a lot of good things happen to me and thus, made me want to drink more...can you figure that out? I feel like i am falling apart again just to make these good things go away...i think this is called self-sabatoge. Have gone to many therapists to know what i am doing...but still do. You can tell i am fed up?
Can't get the nerve to talk to my new boyfriend because he is now clean and sober and he thinks i have a "manageable" drinking problem...i am good at hiding it. I don't want to lose this man, or myself again...I feel it coming on. I won't survive it again...I don't want to live if i am going to be controlled by alchohol anymore.
It is at the point where i get sick if i don't drink again. I don't have two or three days off in a row to get throught the detox...I do in a couple of weeks though. I just want to be back in this community because it has saved my life before...I want to be able to share and help again:thanks:
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