This is meant to encourage you, so I hope it doesn't discourage you in any way as I wasn't honestly going for AF, just more control. I'm just really truly sick and tired of it having control over me. You know, the whole bottle, rather than enjoy a glass of wine and savoring the taste and smell as it should be or even 2 and then I'm done. I bought the whole kit and caboodle of MYO before I started as it was suggested; the tapes, supplements, got the Topamax from the doctors. She says in the book to get it all before you start and start when you know you won't be traveling. 2 or 3 days in I lost my father and this is NOT a good time to stop drinking! (Just following the books suggestion here!-Yeah right!) I got back and bought a bottle. Drank the whole blasted thing and was disgusted with myself. My husband was none to happy either. :bat: But that's his problem. He's never been Mr. Supportive anyway. So I had the MYO stuff. I put all the supplements in one of those weekly pill boxes (making my own labels Morning/Mid-Morn / Afternoon / Evening compartments) for the next day and made a commitment to myself. I used the Topamax and I listened to those tapes. As soon as I walked in the door from work I told my husband to hold off the kids, locked my bedroom door and listened to the tapes. My son came knocking twice and I thought, this is NEVER going to work! I didn't REALLY believe this would work. I mean I hoped it would of course. I kept doing it. I also drank 2 or 3 glasses, trying to maintain it to 2, but sometimes blowing it. But I kept up with everything for a week. Then I got sick with the flu (Just a little streeeesssed). Everything stopped again (but this time, so did the wine! At least at these times I don't even think about it!), all stopped except for the tapes. A couple of nights ago I had a glass of wine with dinner. Then, poured myself a half glass. Why not the full glass as usual, I have no idea. I went into the living room, put it behind me on the table behind the couch as I normally do and started watching TV as I usually do. I don't know how long went by, maybe around a half hour, forty-five minutes, before I thought about being thirsty to turn around and see a half a glass of wine still there. WO! Where's my tapes, Where's my tapes?! I need to listen to them some more. Keep going. This is actually working. I'm not drinking to get drunk! Is it possible? I can't tell you how great it feels to get up in the morning and not be mad at me! I'll probably blow it here and there. I'm not perfect. But I'm going to keep going with this. That right there; that one moment, was a great step for me. One step. I need more of those, I know, but you guys go for it. I wish you that step - that feeling of Wo! And for me - geez, I hope there's more 'Wo's for my family tomorrow.
Thank you everyone.
Thank you everyone.
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