is this time, the last time?

[down2earth]

I often ask myself this... I swear that this time was the LAST time, but is it really ever the last time? I want it to be, but I have no way to guarantee that! It's gotten far to easy, and I have a hard time saying no to myself. But maybe I will succeed this time, but maybe I won't....

I tell myself to remember this feeling, so that next time I wanna drink, I will remember how terrible today was. But how easy it is to forget...I just love AL, sometimes I think I love it more than I love myself....

Sorry, I just need to vent.

[tlrgs]

is this time, the last time?

yeah i use to say tha same thing and now i feel soo much that iam not drink good luck to you . you will know when the time is right for you to totally quit drinking .again good luck and god bless you for trying

[down2earth]

is this time, the last time?

thanks tlrgs, it helps to have friends...who understand me

[FinallyRN]

is this time, the last time?

I don't think there is one among us who hasn't done that. If we could decide that that would be the last time and actually mean it, and follow it through, we wouldn't be here..........I can't tell you how many last drinks I've had or how many mornings I've sworn that that was it. All it took was 3-4 days to forget or just decide I can handle it this time. I won't overdue it. I'm in control. I'll just have 2 and I'll be fine. I LOVE wine, I miss it but when it got to the point that an invitation to a party or restaurant would make me sad because I knew where I'd end up it was to time to re-think this love. AL had totally taken over my strength and power, my ability to say "no". It was affecting how I performed at work and my mental stamina. I had words at the tip of my tongue but couldn't say them........in my profession thats not good.
I got to the point where I was recuperating more than I was living. I kept a diary of my indulgences and realized out of a week 3 days were written off. I don't know how old you are but it just wasn't fun anymore and at 48 you begin to look like you drink.
So one day you'll probably wake up and say "Today is the day" and mean it. I did.

[down2earth]

is this time, the last time?

i hope you're right! I am only 24, and I don't want to wake up one day and realize I wasted my life being wasted!! Ugh, the feeling behind my eyes is so painful!

[LVT25]

is this time, the last time?

I was just thinking if I had even thought a little bit about how much I was drinking when I was 24 it might have saved me ALOT of hangovers !:H (23 years worth)
You can do this, read the book if you haven't.:welcome:

[FinallyRN]

is this time, the last time?

I think its amazing down2earth that you are looking at this at 24. At 24 I thought this was a right of passage and continued to the point I am now. Good for you. I wish you luck.

[Croft]

is this time, the last time?

I am thinking about you!!! Hang in there.

Looking forward to watching all the little fishes on Sunday!

[Kirova]

is this time, the last time?

down2earth, AL doesn't deserve your love...but you do. This CAN be your last time -- if you're willing to work hard for it. You're so worth it. :h

[vegan]

is this time, the last time?

Hi down2earth,
It was nice talking to u in chat last night.
I've been thinking about you today. Hope you're feeling a bit better?
Yes it would be wonderful if we could remember how awful we felt with the hangover. unfortunately we feel great and think we can have just a couple. Yeah right! Doesn't work like that does it?
Anyway u helped me last night cos i was craving like mad and it was just good to chat
I'm on day 13 today. U can do it too!!!!!
Charlotte xx

[maasai]

is this time, the last time?

down2earth,we all "LOVE" AL, BUT we dont really LOVE IT, it has taken us and trapped us since we thought it was a good friend BUT only for a few months ,years and look at what our dearest friend did and payed back, death, inprisonment, cost us our families, and we had to pay back with our lives,
we are all in a dark tunnel and we can see the light at the end how do we get to the light, we fight and struggle its not easier and this is a fight which will leave forever. you can do it i can do it but not alone, and thats why i love everyone at MWO,

[down2earth]

is this time, the last time?

Always love the replies I get from you wonderful people! I was sure down in the dumps, but all the love, support and advice made a huge difference in my state of mind. I want to do this. I need to!

[universal]

is this time, the last time?

Down2Earth I am 33 and wish I had looked at my drinking patterns at 24 - good for you for taking a step back and looking at it now. I sure wish I did.

I'm really proud of you for your efforts.