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[57Shelby]

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Hello, All.
I am new to MWO. I statted the Supplements yesterday and the hypnotherapy. I just wanted to let Ace know that it was great reading your posts. I felt a great sense of weight lift from you from the first post to now. It was inspiring. Your sense of humor is great! That will come in handy for you and especially for us. Thanks!

[Shikakai]

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57Shelby;300476 wrote: Hello, All.
I am new to MWO. I statted the Supplements yesterday and the hypnotherapy. I just wanted to let Ace know that it was great reading your posts. I felt a great sense of weight lift from you from the first post to now. It was inspiring. Your sense of humor is great! That will come in handy for you and especially for us. Thanks!

Welcome aboard, Shelby :welcome:

[Heavenly]

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This is a very inspiring thread...even for us that have a few more days under our belts ... well done to all of you for trying.

Don't ever give up giving up !

Heavenly

[aceofbase]

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I am really wishing for that "break" right now...this is a hard habit to break....duh!

I am anxious, irritable and have a light headache...I've got to get through 2.5 hours and try an be enjoyable to be around...send me some Karma

[aceofbase]

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...I just went into the garage and grabbed the bottle of ice cold vodka out of the fridge..( I don't like vodka very much) and looked at it...rationalization...its not rum, one quick drink will calm my urge somewhat and I can enjoy the evening...arg!

I put it back..in 15 my spouse will be home and I won't have the time or ability to drink....gotta hold out.

[Masquerade]

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Ace -

Sending positive Karma, my friend. Just don't do it!! Been there ... done that ... and the t-shirt I received was so damn foul!!!

Life is so much more worthy than AL. Clear head ... logical thoughts ... smooth emotions.

You are a child of God's universe. A contributor ... a meaningful soul ... a cog in the system. Just believe in your true worth!!!

You have so much to offer life than does AL. He is a sneaky, sniffling, suffocating-the-life-out-of-us-bastard......

Trust your inner goodness.
- Masq

[aceofbase]

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...I think I made it AF again...

[Palatia]

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:thumbs:

WTG ace!! I plan to today too.. *checking tea stock* ...

[aceofbase]

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...witching hour has come and gone..I have made it 1 week...I am very surprised. I would not have guessed I could hold out this long when I started this...thank you everyone, Heavenly, Riker...Sunday is new day and new beginning to another week. I fly tomorrow afternoon weather permitting..so no drinking is possible and I will be busy. Hows everyone doing?

Small story, when I was at the airport today dropping off a part I ran into a Senator that is well known...I didn't have to hide or cover up my breath for fear he would smell alcohol. He shook my hand and looked me right in the eye (like a good politician) asked me my name and about the flying conditions. I had a very short conversation and walked with him to the waiting plane he had chartered. It was good to not have to hide anything...like it good to not have to worry where I hid my last cup or empty bottle.

[voices]

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I know the feeling. Almost blissful; a legal high (at least it was for me, not with a senator but you get my drift)! Congrats Ace and keep it up!!!!

-V

[tawnyfrog]

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Ace - great job on 1 week! Just keep going .....

PS: I'm a Tiger Moth fanatic. Does that count?

[Riker]

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Awsome

Congrats Ace, :goodjob:

Unfortunately, AL did make an appearence at my place yesterday evening. He did not stay for long, but he was here none the less.

I'm disapointed in myself, but I'm not going to beat myself up for it, there is no point in that, been there done that to many times. What's important is that I get back to AF starting today.

Again, my hat off to you Sir for surviving Saturday AF..

Riker

[findingme]

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Aceofbase, welcome! i am new to the site also and let me tell you it does help! read posts daily and you will see there are many stories similar to yours. dont be ashamed, be proud that you are making the deision to get heathly. everyday AF will give you more and more motivation. you and your wife are becoming distance because you are hiding your addiction. i bet if you have an honest coversation with her she will dive in with both feet to help you. and if not, you MUST help yourself and see if maybe she might be part of the problem(not to be insulting). my ex was part of the problem and that is why he is my EX. stay strong and keep posting. one day at a time.

[Sunbeam]

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Sunday pm was always my time of indulgence. Many choices, but nothing that had to be done right now. I'm over two months sober, but this afternoon those thoughts of indulging were still there. I won the battle.

[57Shelby]

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I made it through karaoke last night with a few Sharps and then switching to Club Soda with Lime. Today was a little tougher. I started craving my wine. I made it through it with some cranberry juice mixed with plain seltzer. I have a new employee starting tomorrow, so I need to be fresh and on my toes. I will go to bed early tonight and listen to the hypnosis CD's. Ace, hang in there, you are doing so well. You really inspired me. Your post is the first one I started reading and it really gave me the strength to get through the weekend. Your energy and sense of humor really inspired me, along with all the coaching from everyone else. Thanks!!!