or is it just obscured when you've been drinking heavily for so long? I feel so detached from my husband, kids and parents, it feels like over time they've all changed into people I don't know.
I know it's me who has withdrawn from them. I just want to know that if I managed to stay AF, would those overwhelming feelings of love and need to protect and nurture come back.
Maybe if I explain myself better, I might be more understood,sorry.
When I met my husband 10 years ago, I felt it was the best thing that had ever happened to me, but several months later my youngest daughter,then only 5 was knocked down and suffered severe head injuries,it was awful. But I felt so lucky she lived, when so many other desperate families were were not so lucky. My drinking took a hold without realising, then a year later got the call my dear dad was being cut out of the car by firemen.He was on life support for weeks, his injuries were horrific.But at the end of it I felt,Phewww! we are blessed! But my drinking just continued to get heavier!
All those emotions, helplessness,terror,devastation turned to hysterical highs which I still had to repress with booze because they still felt so unnatural and new.
But now after all this time I sit on my 2nd AF day and feel very lonely and isolated in my life and wonder when the al cloud has lifted will I feel again? Sorry to go on, but would really appreciate feedback, please?
elsie17
lease:
I know it's me who has withdrawn from them. I just want to know that if I managed to stay AF, would those overwhelming feelings of love and need to protect and nurture come back.
Maybe if I explain myself better, I might be more understood,sorry.
When I met my husband 10 years ago, I felt it was the best thing that had ever happened to me, but several months later my youngest daughter,then only 5 was knocked down and suffered severe head injuries,it was awful. But I felt so lucky she lived, when so many other desperate families were were not so lucky. My drinking took a hold without realising, then a year later got the call my dear dad was being cut out of the car by firemen.He was on life support for weeks, his injuries were horrific.But at the end of it I felt,Phewww! we are blessed! But my drinking just continued to get heavier!
All those emotions, helplessness,terror,devastation turned to hysterical highs which I still had to repress with booze because they still felt so unnatural and new.
But now after all this time I sit on my 2nd AF day and feel very lonely and isolated in my life and wonder when the al cloud has lifted will I feel again? Sorry to go on, but would really appreciate feedback, please?
elsie17
lease:
ray:
Comment