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[gelgit]

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HI, Just an aside here....I read susan's 2 books years ago and was really impressed. I wonder how she is doing today as things fell apart for her soon thereafter Anyhow, I'm writing to suggest trying melatonin for a good night's sleep. It works for me....something about drinking really screws up the melatonin balance, besides AL messing with good sleep patterns anyhow. Sweet dreams!

[InnerStrength]

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I have to agree wholeheartedly that melatonin is a God send - its the best!
Also, and just as a test- LUSHY are you here? I miss you girl. Ha, just want to see if you are reading this

[My New Beginning]

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Boy, I sure wish I could quit drinking like I did smoking. I smoked a pack plus for 20 years and then one day decided to quit and I haven't picked up a smoke since. I hate cigarettes!
The smell, everything is so bad.
But......why can't I quit the wine? I can only stretch out about 10 days and then I fall back.
:durn: I keep trying though!

[Shelly]

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Hi Auntie

I am new and have tried and tried to stop, and I saw you weren't doing so well. Believe me I am doing worse than you. I have just started, or started once again after many failed attempts. At least we are both in the right place! I ordered the drug topamax, just now out of utter desperation because I know that I can't make it without all the help I can get. If that drug can take away at least some of the cravings then I need it. I have also taken a Kudzu rescue supplement just now. I was against taking drugs but I realise that things are out of my control. I haven't managed on my own. Are you taking the drug? Maybe that is the missing link in getting you over the hurdle? Maybe you are taking it and it's not the magic pill I am hoping it will be. I am new.

Anyway I am sober today all day, and now I am going to watch a DVD relax and listen to the hypnotic CDS. I am really determined and I can see you are too. I don't see why we can't be successful, many people here do manage to gain control, I think it just needs dedication to listening to the CD's every night and all the supplements etc. I feel slightly better knowing that I have these extra tools and pills to help me. Who knows, I just want to be sober tomorrow night, I am meeting a friend for dinner and then I will cross the next bridge when I get to it.

p.s. My friend just called and said he is taking antibiotics and is not drinking tomorrow night. I said me too, we can have coke or I will try sparkling mineral water. What a coincidence is that!!! I was so worried about making it out tomorrow without alcohol and for all for nothing. I guess other people know when their friend has a problem! I guess friends of people who drink too much, also drink too much! Maybe I will see your posts here in the future, that would be nice.

[Blueeyedgirl]

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Hi Auntie,
This is my 3rd day af, and the longest I have been af in 5 years. I understand the call of the AL beast. I also love my wine at night. I usually drank a bottle and a half at least every night! In the last 3 days I have been taking some the recommended suppliments but the others have not arrived. I have not had a drink. At night when I am alone and usually toasting the TV, I have been getting on the chat room. It has helped keep me distracted and focused. Today I realized how much more energy I have.

Granted Sunday night I barely slept and sweated through 2 pairs of pj's, Monday night I slept every other hour, and sweated through 1 pair of pj's, last night I slept every 2 hours and although sweaty I was able to sleep in the same pj's all night. I am in detox mode for sure. I took the melatonin but no help yet.

I believe in you, as much as I believe in me. It may not be today but there will be a day when we both are 365 days af. For now I take it one hour at a time.

Hope you are feeling less shameful and more lifted. You are worth loving!

BlueEyedGirl

[livingfree]

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Auntie - I'm bumping this back to the top - just wanting to see how you are doing today? Hang in there. Don't ever ever give up. You just never know when that day arrives and sticks. Keep on trying dear. You can do this
Liv

[Suzanna]

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Auntie, I remember you from back when and I am happy to see you here now. If you fall just keep coming back on here, post and read or just read. I drink on the weekends, wine, friggin wine, but am managing to stay af during the week. Today on the way home my mind started the sing song it always tries when I feel stressed, you had a good day, you accomplished alot, you should get some wine, you "deserve" it!! I deserve what, what? To feel like crap tomorrow?? Yeah right good one, I told the voice to bug off. Please believe I was an every night wino for a long time. Now I gotta cross over the weekend hurdle or at least or most actually, moderate!

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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Auntie,

My 3rd day AF and I almost didn't make it. I had to think the craving through to the end. The end would be to sit like a veg, around my family, drinking wine and staring at some boring crap on the TV. Have ordered supps but they haven't come yet. Instead I'm drinking water, eating chinese, reading a book and taking valarain root to get sleepy. Today was real rough. For me, I had to stop, think my actions through to what I new the outcome would be. At one point I was stomping my feet chanting, "The urge will stop, the urge will stop..." Thank God I was alone! LOL
Take care.

[auntiegriselda]

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Thanks to everyone who's written. I really and truly appreciate all the support. I'm still not doing all that well, but it's great knowing that people in this community are behind me. I've just had a hellish week at work. Seems that everything that can go wrong has. Well, maybe not everything! It can always be worse. I've been really in a mode of doubting myself and not liking myself very much. For one thing have just been working WAY too many hours. Very stressful. Hopefully it'll get better.
Thanks again. I'm going to bed now.
Auntie

[4theboyz]

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Hello Auntie,

You are amongst friends. It is easy to let work get under your skin and add fuel to the fire of urges. But unless you drink at work, your work may actually become your ally, your AF constant in your life and your journey as you lay waste to all the other triggers in your life. Problem drinking usually starts at home or your social haunts. This is where many problems hide out and really require you to evaluate the role Al plays in your life. Work problems are just that - work problems and can be dealt with at work. AL is expert at raising hell and laying blame, and when you are ready we/MWO is the place to turn to find solace and direction. This my dear can take lot of courage that I for one believe you have lots of. Let's get busy!

[myra]

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Yes I did some more love me some wine and hate it as well. Nothin worse than a wine hangover. God how absolutely sick can a person be from something that starts out so good. Listening to subliminal cd now. Still can't find all of them but the supps have helped. Not so sure the campral has helped much.

[matthen]

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Hi folks, I am Matt and this is my first posting ever to my way out. Thanks so much for sharing your stories. I am just like so many of you. I love it/hate it. Don't understand why I don't stop and all the while it just seems to be getting worse. I think I will visit this site often and especially so when i feel like a drink -- thanks for being therre, Matt

[LVT25]

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Matt

Hi Matt and welcome. Something I learned when I first started here, is if you want to get more replies, you need to post on a recent thread or start your own. If you look back on this one, it is 3 pages. Just don't want you to get discouraged. Be sure to go to the April showers thread, it's a daily motivational thread. Hope to see ya around!!

[matthen]

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Thankyou LVT. I appreciate it alot, Matt

[Noelle]

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Auntie....I like you and I don't doubt you.