Not doing so well
Thanks Noelle, and everyone else. I'm feeling a little better today but still am having some wine tonight. Have to work again tomorrow early but sometime in the next few days am going to really do some soul searching. I guess I've never really trusted my own judgement. If something goes wrong, it's probably my fault. That's why I make a decision and then agonize over it. As a manager, I'm not supposed to feel that way. I should be decisive and know exactly what I want out of every situation. Arrrgh!! I wonder who told me I had to do that! Most people don't know the torment I put myself through. A person must keep up appearances, don't you know! I'm taking an antidepressant but not seeing a counselor at the moment....not for several years actually. And right now I don't even have time!!
I am so happy that I found MWO. It's a relief to be able to confess some of this stuff.
:h
Auntie
Thanks Noelle, and everyone else. I'm feeling a little better today but still am having some wine tonight. Have to work again tomorrow early but sometime in the next few days am going to really do some soul searching. I guess I've never really trusted my own judgement. If something goes wrong, it's probably my fault. That's why I make a decision and then agonize over it. As a manager, I'm not supposed to feel that way. I should be decisive and know exactly what I want out of every situation. Arrrgh!! I wonder who told me I had to do that! Most people don't know the torment I put myself through. A person must keep up appearances, don't you know! I'm taking an antidepressant but not seeing a counselor at the moment....not for several years actually. And right now I don't even have time!!
I am so happy that I found MWO. It's a relief to be able to confess some of this stuff.
:h
Auntie
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