Only just came across this forum. It seems very helpful and supportive.
I have realised that my binge drinking at weekends was running over onto Mondays and the usual pattern of feeling remorse, not drinking for another week or two was sometimes followed by a Friday/Saturday night binge or even a whole weekend and so on. My wife drinks as well but she knows when to stop (or doesn't have the capacity) and socially it has been difficult to abstein in social situations. She has recognised it's become a problem for me as well and is supportive.
As I was a former rugby player I have started to feel jaded in myself, my fitness has slipped and I'm fed up that I cannot pass up a drink at home or when offered. I seem to manage to abstein during the week at times but occassionally if staying away on business, I have got through a bottle of vodka two nights on the trot. I am also partial to wine. And the people I work with wouldn't even know next day. I felt like shit but carried on.
Anyway, I have realised that it can't go on any longer and to be honest it's daunting thinking that I won't be drinking but I had my last drink Monday night and it's Thursday night now - I had the most horrendous hangover and comedown for 2 nights. I could have murdered a vodka after dinner tonight and almost went to the shop. Then 30 seconds later it passed and I felt ashamed but relieved and went to my room.
Binge drinking at weekends has been an occassional problem since my mum died 9 years ago but it has been the last three or four years (we moved abroad for a period) that it has got worse and with hindsight I reckon it started to get really serious about a year ago.
I don't want it to ruin my life and really want to stop. I would love to be able to drink in moderation but...... wouldn't trust myself at this point in time.
So going to give this my best shot and I really mean it this time.
Any tips, help, support or encouragement gratefully received.
MidWalian
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