hi...new here!!

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I just ordered the book and CD's and supps. Can't wait to get them. I got my script for topomax and was wondering if I should start that before the other components arrive, or if I should wait and start all together? From all I've read it seems better to incorporate all and start all together. I'm so anxious to get started though but DO NOT want to fail!!

I'm a binge drinker....I can go 3-4 days drinking nothing then one day drink 1-2 glasses of wine then BOOBM....a huge binge where I black out and all...I'm a functional blackouter...just keep on going and have NO memory the next day plus a killer hangover. A lot of apologies and shame. I just can't understand how I can go a few days with nothing...to a total out of control binge....then at other time drink like a normal person stopping after 1 or 2.

I hate AA....blah blah blah....anyway....this is my last hope that allows me to stay here and be a mother to my kids. I can't go into an inpatient treatment program. I'm a single mom and my ex has nothing to do with the kids at all. He hasn't seen them in 8 months. No child support either. I gotta straighten up for them and me.

Sorry so long!! I just have never had anyone I could talk to that would remotely understand how I'm feeling! Thanks for reading!

diane

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hi...new here!!

Good for you Hope!
I am not sure about your question on waiting to start the Topamax until your other stuff arrives. I dont know why you would have to wait other than the fact that it works best when all incorporated together. The Topamax is very effective and I think you may get immediate results if you start it, although not everyone does. The first week on Topamax at 25 mg, I didnt notice much benefit. Then the second week when I went up to 50 mg it was huge benefit!

I know that is a tough struggle being a single Mom... been there, done that too. But you are on the right track to recognize you have to tackle this for your children, and for YOU!

Just come on here and read, post, ask questions whenever you feel like drinking and hopefully it will provide the necessary distraction that you need to carry through. Until then....

All the best, and good luck!
Allie

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hi...new here!!

Hi Hope,

Welcome to MWO! I know the feeling of wanting to have everything in place and starting the program all at the same time. I felt the same way! However, since you have the topa already, I would go ahead and start it. It can only help jump start you on your way! By the time the rest of your supplies arrive you will probably be titrating upto 50mgs.

As Allie said, at 50 mgs you may already be feeling a huge benefit from the topa, so starting now can only only help.

Best of luck to you as you begin! You are making a great choice in your life that can only benefit you, and your children! Can't wait to hear how you progress! Let us know what we can do to help!!

Donna

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hi...new here!!

I hope 365 were all at it the right place hope your things come soon my took 8 days . I seem to drink just like you and are going for not drinking anymore .Been to AA and was not helping much that was many years ago . but works for some which is OK. I;m taking camral and seems to be working good for me so far. Big test is today going to a brothers 50 birthday party. Have 7 days days behind me now and this time I want to really do it for myself instead others hope that give me a new edge along with MYO. Take care of yourself and wish you the best. Later.

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hi...new here!!

Hey Teechino, Congrats on 7 days! Thats great! And good luck at the party, you can do it!! Just remember where you were a month ago... and where you want to be tommorro...Drink a gallon or 2 of water before the party, that'll keep you busy for a while...LOL!:eek
And welcome aboard Hope, Good luck to you both. Hugs, Judie

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hi...new here!!

Thanks to all of you! It's funny that I thought I was the only one in the world that felt bad about my "social" drinking when it turned into a binge. All my friends are drinkers too and none seem to be bothered by it or they just don't let on. We have never talked about it before, seeking help that is. I love my friends very much and fear that I will not be able to hang out with them anymore. (that's why I opted for the topamax so maybe I can still go but won't go too far) We are all teachers so hanging out to us means going to the local mexican restaurant and having beer, margritas, and eventually dinner over about a 4 hour spread. Not too wild...but still a lot of alcohol. My tab once was over $60 and I had one food item for 5.95! :eek

I'm so glad I found this program and this message board! It does really help!

Does anyone else have that mysterious problem where somewhere in the middle of the 3rd glass...all control and reason and logic goes right out the window??? I always seem to think I can stop at 3 because I know good and well what comes next! Turns into 2-3 bottles that I don't even remember opening!

I'll start the topo tonight!! I'm excited and really ready for this!