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No, I haven't started the meds yet. I am putting off starting till I have everything in place. I am waiting for the All One Powder. It should be here any day. I want to start everything at one time. I know it will take an adjustment, body, soul, & spirit. I guess I'm just putting it off for one last night of a date with my wine. My daughter has always acused me of being overly organized wanting everything in it's place. I'm blaming my procrastinating on that. I'm really dreading the start. I have tried other things to quit that failed, and I don't want to fail again. Feeling like a failure isn't good. This program sounds almost too good. I have already benefited from by all the great posts. It has been so encouraging. I would never go to AA and stand before people and confess my problem, but to go here and open up has been good for me. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Thanks for responding. Eliziby
PS I was typing my post name when my doorbell rang and it was UPS with my All One. Now what excuse do I have?

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good timing for the ups guy, or not...

I'm with you on the AA thing, I could never in a million years stand up in front of a group and talk about this, sure is a lot easier this way. I have found in my 4 days that it makes a big difference to change up the habits, I used to walk in the door from work, head straight to the frig for the glass of cold wine

I've been keeping myself really busy with anything I can find .. making up stuff to do, kids are looking at me like I'm crazy, they are asking me, Mom, you want to drive me where? normally I never drove anywhere after 7pm
so, good luck and good thoughts are with you eliziby

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Am not there yet, but will be soon. Keep in touch. Eliziby

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Know what you mean about standing up in front of a group and proclaiming to them all "I am an alcoholic". I have been having therapy for three years for depression and my psych knows that I drink. She has prescribed Campral but I never took it. Didn't want to go into a pharmacy and be recognised as an alcoholic.... Managed to stop once or twice for short periods - once 7 weeks but normally five or six days. The wine in the fridge is very hard to resist after a hard days work and three boys in the house! Why can't we just have one glass..... Went to see the doctor yesterday - she didn't hug me but have decided to give the Campral a go. She didn't have any experience of Topa for drink problems and only speaks French so it was not possible to give her the research but with a bit of luck I will succeed this time. But TOGETHER we will succeed. Good luck to everyone for today. Elaine x 8)

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Don't give up. We can do it with encouragement from each other. There are too many sucess stories. If we work at it, we will be one of them. Eliziby

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hi..........what is the dopa effect? i am on my second day 25 topomax and fell kind of spacey and dull, is that it?