I have been reading these posts since last week - I am thrilled that there is a program/community besides AA. I desperately need to make changes regarding my alcohol use.
I have been drinking for 34 years. There...I finally said it and it is painful. I know that I am on the verge of becoming physically ill - pain in my right side after a binge, 3 to 4 day hangovers. I am already emotionally ill. The anxiety and guilt from my drinking is overwhelming.
I feel I am such a hypocrite. I do not appear to have this horrible problem. I work full time, look put together (except for the 25 lb weight gain) and put on a front no matter how terrible I feel after a night of drinking. No arrests, no missed work. I do what I have to even if I feel like hell.
I have ordered the book and vitamins and CDs. I was AF 5 days last week and then on Saturday night drank to the point of blacking out again, and fell. I don't remember. THat is the scary part. So.....I am AF two days at this point and waiting for my book, etc. And this community's support.
I am fascinated by everyone's stories. For so long I have felt that I am the only person who is so messed up. It is a great comfort to know that there are so many other people willing to make positive changes ODAT. Thanks for being there. I hope to become a part of this community.:thanks:
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