Okay I'm new to the site and MWO program. I've jumped in with both feet. Ordered the book, CD's and six week starter kit. I really want to believe that I can enjoy alcohol in moderation, and that I can switch off the part of my brain that insists on getting me completely blasted at every opportunity.
I started drinking at 18 and progressed to a completely non-functioning alcoholic at age 22. Had to drop out of University, I would have flunked out in any case as I wasn't attending classes anymore. Moved home and went cold turkey abstinent. Got my life back together did the AA thing, which I didn't really find all that helpful. Managed to get a good job. With my restored health, I believed that I could handle drinking. And for the most part I could handle it. I became a 6 pack an evening drinker and managed to lead a fairly productive life. This continued until about 26. I then decided it wasn't really healthy to drink every day. So I went to the only drink on the weekends plan. This actually worked pretty well for a while, occasionally I'd start the weekend a little early on Thursday night or end it late on Sunday night. But over all I'd say I felt pretty good about at least cutting out 3 or 4 nights of drinking a week. I'm now 27 and I've noticed that I'm starting to get too carried away on the weekends. I look forward to those nights of drinking way too much. The last three weekends I've been drinking secretly, out of sight of my girlfriend and getting completely plastered beyond black out stage. All it takes is a couple of drinks and I can't stop myself until I pass out.
I've worked very hard over the last few years to become a successful functioning alcoholic and I don't think I can keep it up. I'm now a partner in a multi-million dollar business. I met the love of my life, we're now engaged. By all accounts I have a great life. However, it hit me this morning as I woke up from last night's fog. I will lose all of it if I continue down this path. So here I am!
Here are my initial concerns, I haven't received the book yet, so forgive my ignorance. Is moderation a realistic scenario for someone with my history? Can it be done without prescription meds? I really don't want to go down that road unless all else fails. Is anyone else having success without the meds that can offer me some advice?
It actually feels great to get all of that out of my system, sorry for the long post, but I just couldn't stop writing! Might as well lay it all out on the line and ask for help. I genuinely hope I can return the favor some day!
Thank you!
I started drinking at 18 and progressed to a completely non-functioning alcoholic at age 22. Had to drop out of University, I would have flunked out in any case as I wasn't attending classes anymore. Moved home and went cold turkey abstinent. Got my life back together did the AA thing, which I didn't really find all that helpful. Managed to get a good job. With my restored health, I believed that I could handle drinking. And for the most part I could handle it. I became a 6 pack an evening drinker and managed to lead a fairly productive life. This continued until about 26. I then decided it wasn't really healthy to drink every day. So I went to the only drink on the weekends plan. This actually worked pretty well for a while, occasionally I'd start the weekend a little early on Thursday night or end it late on Sunday night. But over all I'd say I felt pretty good about at least cutting out 3 or 4 nights of drinking a week. I'm now 27 and I've noticed that I'm starting to get too carried away on the weekends. I look forward to those nights of drinking way too much. The last three weekends I've been drinking secretly, out of sight of my girlfriend and getting completely plastered beyond black out stage. All it takes is a couple of drinks and I can't stop myself until I pass out.
I've worked very hard over the last few years to become a successful functioning alcoholic and I don't think I can keep it up. I'm now a partner in a multi-million dollar business. I met the love of my life, we're now engaged. By all accounts I have a great life. However, it hit me this morning as I woke up from last night's fog. I will lose all of it if I continue down this path. So here I am!
Here are my initial concerns, I haven't received the book yet, so forgive my ignorance. Is moderation a realistic scenario for someone with my history? Can it be done without prescription meds? I really don't want to go down that road unless all else fails. Is anyone else having success without the meds that can offer me some advice?
It actually feels great to get all of that out of my system, sorry for the long post, but I just couldn't stop writing! Might as well lay it all out on the line and ask for help. I genuinely hope I can return the favor some day!
Thank you!
) and it will give you some time to really think about what kind of role you really want alcohol to play in your life. 
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