back again with a vengeance (I think)

[jools1961]

Hi all, been about a year since I fell out of the MWO nest and now find myself needing everyones help and guidance even more than ever.

Drinking every day or just about, using the alcohol to suppress anxiety and guess what there goes the old cycle again...

Started back selling real estate and love it but find it stressful changing careers at 46, plus living with my mother and father (dad very sick with alzheimers) whilst building a new house, mum very critical at every turn but that said its not her fault I drink too much. However she can cut me to shreds with her tongue though and not one thing I do is good enough if you know what I mean. So I know its a catalyst anyways.

Hubby good but hates me drinking. Kids hate me drinking. I hate me drinking - duuhhh!

God where do i start! I just wanna stop drinking altogether cause I'm a bucket or nothing girl. Started with all good intentions today but by lunchtime the widgets started in my tummy and the worms in my head said "whats in the cupboard today" aaaaghhhhh

So I made a great greek salad and washed it down with some sickly coconut rum thing and coke that my daughter brought home and said was vile - aint nothin too vile for me when I am in this mood aaaaghhhhhh

Then went to the country club and had champagne, then brought two bottles home to share but i ended up drinking most of it aaaaaghhhhh again. Sober now though but fluey and tired of me me me. Why am i so self involved!!!

I heard effexor has some correlation with excessive drinking - has anyone heard of that or am i clutching at blame straws?

Look forward to talking to you all!!

Love to all out there in this great big crazy wonderful world xxx Julie

[Thankful]

back again with a vengeance (I think)

Jools ~ welcome back. You sound like you may finally be serious enough to give this another go.

Do you have the book? Do you take any supplements? What exactly is your game plan this time? It's so important to have a plan. You also really need to figure out what your triggers are.

I am not familiar with Effexor but maybe someone else here is and can offer more info. You could always try to research it on the internet.

Good luck. We are here for you.

Love, Me
:l

[tlrgs]

back again with a vengeance (I think)

hi there..jools. welcome back . guess its time to clean house . good luck and we are here for you

[jools1961]

back again with a vengeance (I think)

just for today

Thanks guys, I guess the first thing is to get through the morning, then the afternoon, then the dreaded evening when wine o'clock commences!

Game plan - get through today. Then try not to worry about getting through tomorrow! its amazing how much time and thought alcohol takes up.

I am going to get the complete program to get stuck into this...do this.

I had a major altercation with my mother last night. :b&d: Feel a bit upset today but I am going to analyse the problem and try to fix it (the unfixable ) hehehe!

I'd like to run away somewheres....

[BabyGirl]

back again with a vengeance (I think)

I was on Effexor now on Lexapro -- so much that I have read says that you crave alcohol... I am currently titrating down. I am back after "falling from the nest too" Good luck to you! Baby