still waiting

[Peanut]

Hello everybody,
Well - I am still waiting for the supps and CD's and have not yet had any luck having an AF day since joinging this group last thursday. I am getting impatient, but it has only been 6 days since I ordered everything, so I guess I have to be patient. In the mean time, relying on willpower is just not working for me. In fact, since I have been thinking so much about my drinking, I seem to want that first glass of wine earlier in the evening. Before, I never thought about it until about 11 at night!!! I am obsessing about it in my mind now. Although I have not gone AF yet, I have managed to stop a bit earlier. In fact, I didn't finish the bottle last night!!! Amazing!!!! And was in bed by 12:30, instead of 1:30. Not much, but it's a start. I am so looking forward to getting the help I need. i hope it is not too much longer, as I have no willpower. On the way home from work yesterday, I kept saying that I really shouldn't drink wine that night, but my van just automatically drove to the liquor store - what a phenomena!! I bought a bottle, not a box!!!

I will keep reading the posts, prepare myself for a new start.
There are such inspirational stories here, and they give me such hope for myself!
Peanut

[boozehag]

still waiting

Hi Peanut
You obviously need to get a new van! Only joking. Maybe the AL knows its days are numbered and is panicking and making a last push for supremacy. Dont panic as once you get all the stuff you will be ready to start your AF plan. You gotta have a plan though .... Especially for the times when you have the most triggers.
Can you tell anyone? I have told every single person I have met that I am off the drink and cigs even total strangers serving in shops (!!) very embarrasing for my children. But I am so happy about it I just want to share it with everyone! And it makes it harder for me to fail. Not that I am going to. My kids are sooo over the new sober me! Anyway once you get a few AF days under your belt it should be self motivating and you will enjoy it so much (no hangovers, no guilt, no anxiety, lose weight and save heaps of money) that you wont even miss AL. I am starting to feel sorry for people who never had a problem with drink as they just dont know how wonderful not drinking is! Maybe I should tell them too. Maybe not... I am on day 24 today (which is only just 3 weeks) which is not a lot when you consider 20 years of binge drinking and smoking (bad in last 5) but even after such a short time I feel the grip of the demon drink has loosened considerably. I wish you well and keep reading and posting.
BH

[Peanut]

still waiting

Thanks BH!
I've talked with my partner about it, and he's on my side. I've told a few people in my drinking/running group, and they are encouraging. I'll have to have a designated drinker!! Plus my brother, who also has a wine problem. So it is out there. I'm not going to hide it. I also have mentioned it to a couple other people, at the pool and in a store. Strange thing to do, but whatever!!
Peanut

[boozehag]

still waiting

Thats is great that you can tell people - it is nothing to be ashamed of and as you can see from this site it (drinking problems) happens to so many people in all walks of life. I am sure it must be so much harder if you are trying to hide it - hide giving it up that is. I have found people are really encouraging and everyone keeps asking me how I am going (except my husband who doesnt seem to notice much!). Not many people have said why are you off the drink so they must all have known what a total piss head I was...... Also another major bonus is that I feel that time spent with other people family friends etc is so much more meaningful than through the bottom of a bottle of wine. Some people are much more annoying than I thought they were.....
You must be the person with the drinking group that runs sometimes! I liked that. It is amazing how much alcohol is involved in sporting activities - the reward I suppose.
ANyway I am rambling now so talk later and keep posting about your progress.
BH

[Leolady]

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Hello Peanut
I'm very new here too. Joined last Monday after an horrendous weekend where I really shamed myself (see my earlier post). I am waiting for my supps and cds too. It is very difficult, I know, but you did well not to finish the bottle! I nearly always do. I think you should feel pleased with yourself for that. I normally drink about 5 to 6 glasses of wine every night and more at the weekend. Sunday (the day after my disgrace) I lost the whole day to hangover/guilt/remorse and drank in the evening. Monday I managed to be AF. Tuesday went to pub and only had 4 drinks (slight progress). Today, I have been AF and am planning to stay that way for today. I think it helps to have a plan, even if it is to try to limit the number of drinks you intend to have and then stick with it. However, it is very early days for me and I am clearly not an expert. Will probably be easier with the supps and mods. You will get there, I am sure with all the support that is here. Keep posting.
Leolady

[Peanut]

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Hi Leolady
Don't you just hate that shameful feeling???? I had it really bad this past New Year's day. Quite horrid and embarrassing! I am hoping only to finish the last glass of wine in last night's bottle and go to bed. I read for hours at night, sitting up, smoking and drinking. I wouldn't smoke and drink if I were to read in bed instead! That's my plan!!!!
Good luck with everything. Hope your supplies arrive soon!!
Peanut

[bald headed old guy]

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Peanut!
Hi! :welcome: and i hope you do spend some time and get a plan put together to work your way through! the first few days are the most difficult, I found..after that it gets a lot easier. Plus you sleep better!
I found that I had a nasty trigger..walking in the house each night. I automatiacally started to mix a martini, but now I mix up a cranberry juice and soda, many less calories...and I keep that glass full almost all night..so I always have something to sip on (which was what I would do with martini or wine). This has helped me considerably! The other major thing that helped is this site..whenever I felt ALice call my name, I got online and read or posted or chatted my fingers sore...then the time had passed and ALice had gotten bored.
Anyway, I hope those suggestins h=might help you!
Good Luck, post often, tell us what you are doing, feeling..we like to hear how everyone is!
Stay Strong!
BHOG