I can't do this on my own - help

[janedunn26]

I can't do this on my own - help

Hi Wastedtime,

I am so very sorry for your loss. I can only imagine the sadness you feel surrounding your mothers death. You are taking the first step in improving your life by being here. You'll find there are some very insightful people on this site sometimes with the perfect inspirational message to keep you on track. Also, I come here when I feel like I'm alone fighting this disease. I know I'll find others here fighting the same battle along side me, some winning, some losing at the moment, but all trying like hell!

jane

[keeta]

I can't do this on my own - help

matthen...tell them you are on meds you can't drink with...antibiotics are one...hang in there honey, you are doing GREAT

[keeta]

I can't do this on my own - help

jane...you are never alone here...what a super place, huh?

love and hugs,
K

[brittzak]

I can't do this on my own - help

Wastedtime,
God bless you dear. I lost my Mama April 9th to colon cancer that had spread to her liver and ultimately her bones. I KNOW your grief and the pain of seeing someone SLOWLY slip away, BUT and big, HUGE BUT, drinking it away doesn't work. Lost my fiance' 2 years ago and drink myself stupid for a year. Guees what??? When I sobered up..he was still gone! AND man did I feel like crap! Please sober up so you can THINK straight! Get the book, the supps, go to AA, whatever it takes for YOU to get better.

[bald headed old guy]

I can't do this on my own - help

Wastedtime,
Please do yourself a favor. Don't try to quit forever. Please quit for one hour. Only one hour. Then another hour. It is not necessary to quit forever! Just quit for now.
I'd also suggest you might want to find a different drink..I use cranberry juice and soda> i fix a cocktail of that every night as soon as I get home from work and keep it full until bedtime. no need for wine (my fav until I quit).
Stay Strong. You CAN do this
BHOG

[boozehag]

I can't do this on my own - help

Hi Wasted
I can totally relate to your situation. Binge drinking and smoking every 3/4 days for the last 5 years. By day 4 after the previous binge (if I made it) I would be hanging out for more even though the previous 2/3 days I had sworn that I would or could not ever drink again. Anyway I have been AF and NF free now for 30 days tomorrow. The best 30 days ever. I have had no alcohol, no cigarettes and I have lost about 3kg without even trying. I am taking chantix the anti-smoking pill and whatever effect it has on my brain it has completed eliminated any desire to drink or smoke. I still think about it but the craving is not strong at all very mild and easily defeated/distracted. I do not know why it has worked so sucessfully for me on the initial lowest dose too but it seems that compulsive thing in my brain that makes me crave AL and nicotene has been blocked. I am not suggesting that this is a solution for you too as you would need to consult your doctor but I notice it is also being talked about for compulsive eating. There are also terrible reports of suicidal tendencies at the higer doses and some people cannot take it due to various side effects. Anyway I just thought I would mention it in case the information might be useful to you. I have also read the book (which got me started) and initially I did take the supplements kudzu and l-glut but find I dont need them now as there are no cravings.
I am sure you are on your way to a better life.
BH

[matthen]

I can't do this on my own - help

Hi wasted, hope you are to the point of believing that there might be a way out. I think that is a mystical quality of this site - really, I should say the friendship of the people on this site. For once hearing the raw unvarnished truth about AL and beginning to see our own reflection in their stories. It just gives me something to hang hope on -- If folks like booze hag can find their way, maybe then so can I. Somehow, while I like AA and do go, I just felt that somehow everyone there was probably different than I. That they were not "real" alkies, just whatever.

Thanks for sharing your story and Boozing, thanks, and congratulations, you give me hope on day 5. God bless,