35 days AF today

[Karl1981]

hi all.

i haven't been online for a bit and i just thought i would ask a few questions. and to let you all know how im going..

ok i use to get major blackouts when i would drink. now i have been sober for a while im starting to forget even more?
its like my memory is gone. everything from what i said a few min ago to what happened last week.. why is this?
Its scaring me.. my head also just goes blank. everything leaves it and its weird???

im still going through the roller coaster with the ex. and put my foot in it big time today. so suffering from major depression.:upset: boy it was hard for me not to have a drink today. i just had to pull my self away and tell myself NO. u cant go back to that. its not fair on you or the people around you..

ok now a bit of positives after being Af for over 30days.
Ive now forgot about moding. and have decided to just keep doing what im doing and leave it alone for as long as i can.. i dont really have the urge to drink as much as i thought i would of.. It does get easier. its gets a lot easier its actually scary. sometimes i think to my self, maybe i didnt have a problem, its just too easy not to drink now. hehehe

also everyone i know keeps telling me how much i have changed, how im not argumentative any more. how i just don't shut up. ect. its kinda funny i do talk alot more now.. and boy do i have more self confidence. its crazy. (plus i got the hair cut) my x even said im impressed i didnt think you could do it.. boy your looking sexy hehehe.

with out all of your support i couldnt of got through this.. :l i still have the odd bad day with being AF but i just keep telling myself, wonder how long i can go? wow i actually did something for myself for once. and its a great feeling.

:thanks::thanks::thanks:

one more major hurdle to jump over now and then maybe i can be truly happy with myself again.

karl

[Guest]

35 days AF today

That's really great to hear. Good for you. I worry about the people around me as well; first and foremost my child. I am responsible for her growth and personal development; she will look back on her childhood and my goal in life is to make it as pleasant for her as I can. The more I can do for her; and the pleasant memories she has growing up with me the better.

I have a horrible memory as well; at times I am just better not saying anything as I tend to repeat. I am pretty sure it is from not drinking as well. I have no idea why that happens. If someone can provide some input on that, it would solve another one of my mysteries.

35 days AF is a big accomplishment, I hope you're proud of yourself over that. I am having good success with moderation right now. Good luck to you!

[JLMDetermined]

35 days AF today

Sounds like you're doing great and have a good attitude. Keep it up and don't go back!

[LVT25]

35 days AF today

Karl! I've been wondering how you're doing--sounds like you're having great success AF!

I know there are supplements to help with the brain function we have lost from alcohol abuse. If I can find that, I will get it to you. I hate to guess right now and be wrong. Yeah,, see, my memory ain't so hot either!!:H

:goodjob:

[cowgal]

35 days AF today

good job!

I say GOOD JOB Karl :goodjob:...................... and don't worry too much about the memory stuff, people have told me that the brain takes a while to re-wire itself to work without al involved, so that may be the memory stuff, but I feel for you....................I can't recall sometimes wheat I did just yesterday!! YIKES! Scares me, but thinking about all the damage I have done to the brain, makes me grateful I am not doing any more now that I am AF!

Keep us all inspired w/ updates on your progress. I know I appreciate seeing how it is done!

Good luck in all your new adventures!:l

love and hugs...........:h:l

MA

[nojoke]

35 days AF today

Wow Karl!

You have come such a long way. I've read you're posts and you still sound determined to succeed. Good on you. We have so much inner strength that we can amaze ourselves once we get past the guilt and sense of failure. And isn't it great when others notice the difference!

Just remember you are doing this for you, and you are worth it:goodjob:

[Guest]

35 days AF today

Karl

Well done! I am on day 53 and am so scared of AL - despite intense cravings I am still AF.

It's amazing the difference not drinking makes from your approach to life, friends and family really notice too.

Keep strong.

[bootcampbarbie]

35 days AF today

whoop whoop whooop. so much soberland occuring everywhere. so much so good. congrats on this

[tlrgs]

35 days AF today

well done keep it up and stay strong

[Thankful]

35 days AF today

Karl, fantastic job!

Are you taking meds? I only ask because I don't like to advise what people should be taking for depression when they may be on something else. I have to say that I thought I suffered from depression (and insomnia) for years. Wrong! It was the alcohol wreaking havoc with my system for years. Part of my supplement regimen is taking Omega 3 Fish Oil. Not only is this very good for the heart, but it helps with depression. And I was suprisingly shocked by the results. So, just a thought there.

Don't worry about the memory. You are experiencing exactly what you should be right now. The good news is that it will get better. I was going through this a great deal around day 60. And this great member here (Wonderworld) gave me some amazing info that I want to pass on to you.

Research indicates that the brain chemistry takes a major turn for the better after 90 days of quitting alcohol. 21 days to establish new patterns of behavior, 90 days for the brain chemistry to get all cleaned out. So......

The link below will take you to an amazing article that will answer many of your questions. Our brains have amazing healing powers as long as we abstain from the booze. This really gave me a boost of inspiration when I desparately needed it. I hope it helps you too.

Brain Cells Rebound With Alcohol Abstinence


Keep up the great work. You are doing much better than you think!!

Love, Me
:l

[Guest]

35 days AF today

Thank you for that...

[Charlie Girl]

35 days AF today

well done karl - keep it up... i never thought i would say this - but i am up to 18 days af... what a feeling

CG

[caseaday]

35 days AF today

Hi Karl...congratualtions on your accomplishment!

I am day 18 AF and also experiencing some memory loss and stumble for the right word when speaking to another person. I am just assuming that my brain is in the middle of rewiring itself.

I too am talking a lot more than I have in years. For the past few days it seems that what ever goes into my head comes right out of my mouth! It is really a strange side affect! Luckily most of what I say is good natured, but a couple of times I said a couple of off handed comments that were just plane rude!

Oh, well! AF is better than the alternative!

Take Care and keep going...

[janedunn26]

35 days AF today

Great job Karl!!! Keep up the good work. I' m behind you on day 18. You're right it get's easier still have those rough days. My husband says I seem more "animated" and that I smile more. He says I follow through with what I say I am going to do. My daughter and I are having a good time too. It's a great feeling. I'd still like to mod but don't know about that.... too scared now.

Keep going one day at a time!

jane

[cmhguy3]

35 days AF today

AWESOME!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!