I am so angry right now...I just got finished working...I sing in bars and country clubs, restaurants, etc. and it is always hard when there is al everywhere. I got through it ok...almost caved, but told my band mate and he helped. This is what i love to do and do for a living. I would be depressed without using my voice.
I do see relearning how to deal in this situation because last year I quit smoking for my voice. Now its kind of the same thing...i won't get as sloppy, voice won't dry out from al and won't look like a drunken steriotypical mess.
I am angry because my boyfriend who lives far away went out and had a good time and said he would call, but took forever calling which sent me into a crazy mess and i feel bad that i snapped at him, but one thing he said i did not like was that i was wrong (he doesn't drink) and he said "what do you want a pat in the back for not drinking " I felt like blowing up...but of course didn't. And yes at least some sensitivity. I just wanted him to understand which he should...but no...
Am I being too sensitive? Is this the dreaded irritability? Am I being selfish, or is he...I can see how this potentially ruins relationships.
I just want to know how to calm down when things don't go my way and the beast is calling me to be friends with him again...this sucks. I'm safe tonight and am planning on getting through tomorrow. Bring on day 4.
Any experiences, or tips on this stuff?
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