Can I come too?
I have been hanging around this site for a bit and really like it. I have been very aware for quite some time that I needed to stop drinking totally and immediately for health reasons .... I had an alcohol free year in 1988 and decided that 20 years on it was time for another one, so that was my NY resolution. Needless to say, I haven't stuck to it.
Like others I have a history of alcoholism in my family - 3 years ago my younger sister died as a result. That scared me shitless ...... but still not enough to stop me from keeping on drinking.
I have a wonderful partner and I've felt like I've been lying to him because I keep my level of consumption hidden from him. Our relationship has deepened hugely over the last 3-4 months as a result of a whole lot of factors, and I decided to front up to him about it last week. He has been incredibly supportive and is encouraging me to go to my Dr .... but right now I'm just too scared to because of what I might find out about the damage I have done to myself.
Anyway, I had a very controlled and moderate weekend, but decided that a new week was a good time to start a new life. So today I have been alcohol free, but it is 3.30 in the afternoon here in New Zealand and I've been going crazy since lunchtime knowing that I wont be going home to have a wine. So I thought it was time I signed up.
And Angelcakes - thanks! as it was thinking that someone in the same time zone had taken the same step that was the final push for me!
But I'm feeling pretty fragile and not very strong at the moment.......
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