Just joined

[jajoly]

Hello there. After yet another night where I ended up opening another bottle of wine, I have finally told myself that I need help to do this. I have just ordered the PDF book to print and the CDs (the ones for mums) - I hope to get to know you all soon.

J x:new:

[Accountable for Me]

Just joined

:welcome: jajoly! Glad you found us!

Great start with downloading the book and ordering the CD! You will find tons of support here. Welcome to MWO!

[Muddle]

Just joined

Hi, jajoly. I did the same thing last Saturday night. A month ago, I promised myself if I got that out of control again, I would get help. Then last Saturday night (a week ago), it happened again. I woke up Sunday, and said oh, no, I have to go to AA, but was dreading it. Then I found this website. It was exactly what I needed. Today is Day 6 AF, and I don't think I could have done it without the wonderful support out here.

[jajoly]

Just joined

Thank you all.

I'm still beating myself up about embarrassing myself last night with friends that came over - both were driving - I have them really worried and I feel ashamed that I let them see me so drunk as they were totally sober.:tsk: I need to get a grip of myself - I have 2 children to do this for. No more excuses - I have to face the fact that my drinking has now become a problem that is not going to go away. The crazy thing is that I knew this a year ago - and did nothing about it. I did say to my friends that i wondered if I should go to AA - Don't feel brave enough for that today. Feel really hopeful that I have found this site just after googling "ways to stop drinking" .

Feel quite emotional at the moment, I have to do this. I will do this. I'm 41 and I want to live my life not just exist in this dark cloud anymore. I'm ready.

Thanks J x

[Accountable for Me]

Just joined

It sounds like you are ready to make some positive changes in your life. I believe we all have said, "we should of done this before, now". The thing is you want to change now. You and your kids will benefit greatly.

I am also a mom of two kids and they are my biggest motivators. I am 36. I started working on myself with the MWO program in December 2006 and I was a heavy drinker. I have had a few slips along the way, but the quality of my life being mainly AF (alcohol free) has greatly improved.

I think most of us can relate to 'embarrassing' ourselves. Your friends will forgive you.

[Janice]

Just joined

Hi Jajoly and welcome to MWO!!! I know when I first joined, I got so much comfort from reading posts that could have been written by myself!! Before finding MWO I felt so alone with this horrible addiction. Staying close to MWO's boards has been a lifesaver for me. Take what you want from the programme, take full responsibility and make it work for you!!!!

Good luck!

Janicexxx

[KateH1]

Just joined

Jajoly, Welcome!!
Congratulations on going right for The Book!! You will find so much useful information there and a great deal of encouragement! You are off to a great start!

We have all made fools of ourselves while drinking......arghhhh! But, the good thing is, when you have sober times, under your belt, you will be able to turn all of that around!!

So, hang out, read, post and remember, today is a brand new day!!

Best Wishes!
xx Kate

[caseaday]

Just joined

Hi Jajoly,

Welcome to the MWO community. You will find a lot of great people here that really understand the challenges that you are facing. If you follow the program and interact with people here you will make progress every single day. You might have a slip from time to time, but there is always a group of people that will help you get back up and keep going!

Sounds like you have a pretty good life and now want to make it even better. Great plan from where I stand.

Also, it is typically pretty quiet on the site on Saturday and Sunday so don't get discouraged if it is a little slow.

[LVT25]

Just joined

Welcome Ja,
You have taken that first step, now just keep taking baby steps!

I would really be interested in hearing how you like the CD for moms. I have the original set, and I really think it works. I might get the social one next.

[Peanut]

Just joined

Jajoly!
You are here and that's what counts. The book is very motivating - gives you a feeling that maybe you can do this too. I also have kids - 3 of them, 16-20yo - and my drinking has led to very permissive parenting which I kinda regret. So to be on the ball and there for your children is very important. The program really works if you want it too, all you got to do is get the tools and use this forum as much as you can. Things can and will change for you!!
xoxo Peanut

[Dolly Sunshine]

Just joined

Welcome read and post!! I found a ton of help on the archived stuff!

[Frogzter]

Just joined

:welcome: You will find a lot of support here! Just keep coming back and it will get easier day by day. I am now on day 8 and I check in here every day for moral support. I also read the book, take the supps, topamax and ordered the CD's as well! It really does help.

Blessings and best wishes,

[jajoly]

Just joined

Thanks for the welcome messages :thanks:

I have been very pensive over the last few days since I joined Sat with a hang over and vague and embarrassing pictures flashing back through my mind - funny how you can suddenly remember saying/doing something hours later into the day after the "night before". Had a lovely message from one of the friends with my "last" public display (at least) of being stupor drunk. It was a shaming experience, but one I know has been repeated many times alone with no visible eyes to comment. I needed that shock.

I have not properly started yet, just moderating and going AF ... but I know if I don't do something and realise I can't do this without support that the nightly binge cycle will return ... I know my pattern, I think, and that scares me, as I'm not even sure when I start if I will manage the 30 day AF - that will be my starting point ... knowing where I am starting from ... at the moment I still lull myself into thinking that once I really can be bothered enough to give it a real go that I will be able to do it and moderate ... the realist in me is screaming that I know I will never be a moderator. Time will tell as they say and the proof will be in the pudding.

I am hoping the CD's might arrive by next week and I want to get my head into the space of telling me that I am starting in earnest with the combination of a week off work and the kids being away for a few days at their dad?s as school is half term. I find the pressure of work and the kids at same time a combustible combination and my resolve starts to weaken at about 3pm and I buy wine on the way to pick up the kids at 5.30pm. It then sits in the fridge (or even freezer!) until 8-9pm where it screams drink me drink me until I tell myself "I deserve it" (a familiar one no doubt to many of you).

Trouble is, the 1 bottle has started creeping up to opening a second bottle and drinking half of that too.

I will no doubt be around properly once I "properly" start attempting to change this thorn in my side. I know it shouldn't control me and I have let it, willingly at times.

Thanks for listening.

J x

[Ripple]

Just joined

Hello JJ, hope you enjoy it here. Its fun and we are all trying to stop Drinking and change! Come to chat to relieve tension and see what a bunch of sober-o's are like together...its hysterical at times..nice to me you..I am Ripple. :H

[jajoly]

Just joined

Hi Ripple, Unbelievably, I did find my way onto Chat last night (mid afternoon for the peeps I found) and had a very nice welcome and lots of advice on posting as I tried to post a few times and it wasn't working. So a belated thank you to those guys, much appreciated!

I still have work to get done tonight and maybe that it is a good thing as oftentimes in the past I associate posting messages etc with drinking too, so a new learning curve for me on that one.

Thanks for the invite though! I will take you up when it is my daytime next week and I feel safe!

J x