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    #1

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    Hello all,
    I am starting week 3 of supps and topa; today moving up to 75 mg. Been drinking less during the week, several AF days but the weekends have been pretty much the same routine. Am I not trying hard enough? I am fighting depression as well, and am finding that I really don't feel any better if I'm not drinking -- agitated, angry...I guess all the issues that I usually cover up. I have been seeing a therapist so lots of emotional issues are getting stirred up for me. I am really worried that MWO is not going to work for me and then I will feel like a total failure. Am I not giving it enough time? The "click" is not happening for me, like in the book where RJ talks about only wanting one glass of wine, or leaving the 2nd glass unfinished. I am not there and worried that I will not get there. Please help.

    CS
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    #2
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    Hallo CS04,
    I did not feel much better after day 10 AF either - I think it is very important to work on the emotional baggage as well if we are going to succeed. But there are plenty success stories. Just keep trying.
    Jessie
    make the least of the worst, and the most of the best - everyday.

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      #3
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      Not trying to be a nosey bitch, but why so much topa so quick? Give it time. Topa is powerful for me and some days it makes me jittery. I would say try not to drink at all a good month, it is hard, i know, add some campral, get something to help you relax as well. It takes awhile and then you should feel better. :l

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        #4
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        Topa dosing

        I am simply following the schedule from the MWO book. Oh, I am starting L-glut as well; took 1000 mg this morning.

        The emotional baggage for me is HUGE right now. I've had my 17 year old stepson here this weekend, and while he is a good kid, teenagers are teenagers, as well as the toddler, and also major financial/career issues with hubby. (my career, not his)

        I have been touch and go with the CDs. I prefer to do them when no one is home, and not sure if I like them.....Just wish I could feel more positive about things.

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          #5
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          Did you try going AF for a full 30 days so your mind and body could cleanse a little before you started moderating? Some of the emotions that you feeling right now are most likely due to the fact that your body is on a roller coaster ride right now. I.e. Hitting it hard on the weekend and then dropping AL like a bad habit on Monday. When your body is on a roller coaster as described, the emotions can get a little out of control.

          I have never used Top, but I did try a couple of times to quit during the week and "party" on the weekends. It was a disaster.

          Keep trying...Case

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            #6
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            I don't think AL is going to help your depression or emotional issues at all. Not even a little.
            Dig deep and try to go 30 days AF. I know I cannot moderate. Maybe you can....later.....but please give the AL a rest for a while.

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              #7
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              caseaday;328299 wrote: Did you try going AF for a full 30 days so your mind and body could cleanse a little before you started moderating? Some of the emotions that you feeling right now are most likely due to the fact that your body is on a roller coaster ride right now. I.e. Hitting it hard on the weekend and then dropping AL like a bad habit on Monday. When your body is on a roller coaster as described, the emotions can get a little out of control.

              I have never used Top, but I did try a couple of times to quit during the week and "party" on the weekends. It was a disaster              .

              Keep trying...Case
              I tried that too in the past and it made things :nutso: for me. No :soapbox: but go 30 AF and regroup. You may be amazed about how good you feel.

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                #8
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                CS04,

                There is one other element that is required. A clear desire to either stop or moderate. This program works really well for so many, but if you are ambivalent about trying to moderate or quit, it won't.

                Been there done that. (Quite a few times, unfortunately)

                Nothing worked until I was ready. Then suddenly things started falling into place.

                Examine your inner needs and desires truthfully. Then think about your next steps.

                Hope this helps!!

                Cindi
                AF April 9, 2016

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                  #9
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                  Case and Floridaboy, you're both right -- that is exactly what I've been doing (trying to knuckle back on Monday from a weekend of bad behavior; not to mention the emotional angst of a Mothers Day that didn't go as I would have liked). Hubby drinks too, and has no plans to cut back, so that doesn't help matters. As I also mentioned, the AF days don't give me any relief, other than "OK, I was able to say no for today." I'm just not getting any happiness. I know this is not an easy process; maybe I'm being too much of a whiner. Sigh.

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                    #10
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                    CS04;328329 wrote: Case and Floridaboy, you're both right -- that is exactly what I've been doing (trying to knuckle back on Monday from a weekend of bad behavior; not to mention the emotional angst of a Mothers Day that didn't go as I would have liked). Hubby drinks too, and has no plans to cut back, so that doesn't help matters. As I also mentioned, the AF days don't give me any relief, other than "OK, I was able to say no for today." I'm just not getting any happiness. I know this is not an easy process; maybe I'm being too much of a whiner. Sigh.
                    No, you are not whining. Cindi has it nailed. YOU have to want to stop and the impetus has to come from within. *I* just decided the hangover was not worth enduring anymore. You will find your reason to stop.

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                      #11
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                      Everyone is different. You have to find your way. For me, it just had to finally be "IT" for me. I found my "MEAN IT" voice. I finally said "that is it, I am done with this shit". As Yoda has told us there stopped being TRY and there became only DO. But it did not come from AA or MWO or a book or a special person or any other source. It did not come after 30 days AF, and it did not come after going down the escalator. It came from me when I finally had had enough. The rest were tools to help me get there.

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                        #12
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                        Croft.......:applaud: Don't know what else to say.
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                        Thoughts become things..... choose the good ones. ~TUT

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                          #13
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                          Yes Croft - that darn escala-tor didn't enthrall me!! I required so much personal Will in this battle. Today is a NO day for me after the wine of last night - but I new early in the day yesterday that I wanted to drink it, so I did - yesterday was not a NO day. But today is, and so is the rest of the week - I have resolved to do it as these are all work night, so I WILL DO IT.

                          YOU can do it CS04 - just set your mind to it, and stick to it! Use whatever tools you have. We are all behind you on this!
                          Peanut

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                            #14
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                            Peanut and Croft,
                            I've always been a strong person (at least everyone sees me as a strong person) but this time around, I just can't hold it together. This sounds awful. Your comments all make sense to me. I don't want to blame the depression.. I'm on the right track, I just need to keep plugging I guess. But I know there is a piece missing.

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                              #15
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                              CS04;328794 wrote: Peanut and Croft,
                              I've always been a strong person (at least everyone sees me as a strong person) but this time around, I just can't hold it together. This sounds awful. Your comments all make sense to me. I don't want to blame the depression.. I'm on the right track, I just need to keep plugging I guess. But I know there is a piece missing.
                              AL will not help depression and could be its source. Go AF for at least 30 days and see what happens....you may be amazed at how good you feel physically and mentally.

                              Keep plugging. I do agree with Croft...you need to make a commitment to yourself.

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