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[Amethyst26]

I need help . I am drinking a bottle of wine nearly every nightand I need support to stop. I have tried posting twice here and my posts keep deleting before I can post them. I slept 4 hours last night after passing out from a bottle of wine and have been up reading the boards since 4 am. I do not have the mental energy to write it all over again ...(was pretty long and detailed) but I promise i will once my head clears. Thank you for reading this. I promise I will write a more decent post later today.

[greeneyes]

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Hello amethyst and welcome.:welcome:

When you log in, click the remember me box by your name. I believe that will help with the getting bumped off problem. Sleep deprivation is an issue for many, myself included. Sleep debt can lead to depression and anxiety. And of course, alcohol is a depressant. Sleep problems even continue when you go AF. The supplements help with that though. There are lots of people here willing to offer a helping hand, so talk/type away. And good luck.

[LVT25]

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:welcome:

Sorry you lost your post, that's really frustrating! You've come to a great place. Have you read "My Way Out?" It's a great place to start.

[Dolly Sunshine]

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Welcome

[Mad Mummy]

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Welcome Amethyst

Keep posting and reading it's really good here everyone is so supportive and nonjudgemental. :welcome::welcome::welcome:

[caseaday]

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Hi Amethyst,

Sorry to hear that you lost your post! That is such a bummer. I look forward to hearing more from you...

[Bambi]

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Welcome Amethyst,

Sometimes posts disappear before posting, sometimes you can hit the back button and that will get it back. Frustrating I know....

Welcome here, this is a great site. Full of support and information. As Greenie said, the supplements really help with depression, sleeping and over all health. I take the GABA and calms forte about 30 minutes before bed and it really helps. I believe the health store also carries Melatone which helps with sleeping also. So you may want to give those a try. Plus once you are AF (alcohol free) for a few weeks the sleeping, just naturally gets better because you are free from the with drawls and anxiety of drinking your nightly bottle of wine also.

Best of luck to you. Keep posting and reading.
Hugs, Bambi

[Tiny]

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Amethyst -- I am with you on the wine... trying to snap out of it is hard for me!
Welcome!!!!!

[Peanut]

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Amethyst - welcome.
You story is mine - the wine really gets a hold of a person. Get the tools to help - lots of Supps and the book for inspiration. I know some don't agree, but I have been drinking some of the ALfree beverages, esp the beer when it is hot and sunny out, as that is when I like to drink beer. The night wine is hard to replace, so I just go with soda and cranberry and try to get some sleep. Insomnia I know all about - I am going to go get some GABA today and see if that helps any too.

Good luck and be strong. Set your sights on what you want and read and post often - this site will help you!
Peanut

[Amethyst26]

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'Thanks for all your help guys. I do have a vision of being AF. Last night i had a glass and it tasted bad to me (I have been taking the l-glutamine) for cravings. But unfortunately once I finished that one i had 3 more. The key to me is not to have any at all. But I guess I just like the feeling too much. I have been a single mom for 10 yrs and am not in a significant relationship at this time (but that is another story) I take Effexor XR low dose since suffer from anxiety and depression and I have an erratic schedule. I think my life and my kid's would be a lot more structured (she is 12) if I could just stop or do so in moderation on weekends. But somehow I am lacking strength. I am tired of being semi-functional unless I get 12 hrs sleep. My productivity has diminished even though I still have the ability to get things done. I guess i am just compulsive. I drink the little bottles of wine. This is how I trick my self. I buy 2 and that will be it for the night. But then I will go back to the corner store and buy another....then due to shame I will go to a different gas station and buy a 4th. I mean it sounds nuts but its very scary to me the next day when i think I am going out at 12 am and leaving my kid sleeping in order to buy wine. Sometimes I think I am better off just getting the big bottle. But I know what happens then....So in my case I fear I just gotta get my shit together and stop the nonsense. It is just so hard!

[bestlifeldms]

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Amethyst,

Welcome. If you anticipate that your post may be legnthy or that you may get interrupted, I suggest that you type it in word. Then you can copy or cut and paste it into the "New Thread or Reply" box. I have done this and it works well. It also gives you an opportunity to review and edit, more easily. I look forward to seeing you on the boards.

Again, welcome!

Best

[Bandit]

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Welcome!

Hi Amythyst,
:welcome:
I am no stranger to the habit of visiting different stores in my town to buy booze so that I don't visit the one I have just been to already that day or previous night (my husband and I have even argued over whose turn it is to go) or buying one/two small bottles of wine during the day thinking I will stick to that for the night and then going out again later. And yes, i have to admit that I have left my kids in bed sleeping 3/4 times while my husband was away while I nipped to the store at the top of the road - not something I am proud of.
I started trying to seriously cut back in March and although I still have bad days, I am doing way better than before. Have managed 2 weeks completely AF recently and most weeks have been able to stay off during the week. Main thing for me is not to have any in the house and not to drink at all, once I get past a certain point in the evening I am okay. Eating tons of crisps and sweets though. The weekends are my big problem so still a lot of work to do there - once I start drinking, I can't even enjoy a glass without worrying where the next one is coming from and if I am going to run out. I am on day two AF again today and really want to go at least 30 days completely AF before I can make a decision on moderation or AF.
Hope you find what you are looking for here and wish you all the best.
Bandit

[mitz]

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welcome amethyst......we can do it ! half of the battle is won , when one thinks he can ! so lets begin our new life....AF......like the way it was , before

[Chief]

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Bandit.....

I think this line in your post is very significant:

"once I start drinking, I can't even enjoy a glass without worrying where the next one is coming from and if I am going to run out."

We can all identify with this statement. There comes a point when drinking is no longer fun.....it"s work. We no longer get that buzz...we just chase it, hoping one more drink will do it....but it doesn't. We slip right past the buzz and go straight to drunk and depressed.

I think that's when it's time to make a decision....to really take a look at ourselves and ask if this is how we want to live. We can keep riding along, or we can take over the wheel and start driving.


Don

[Bandit]

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Hi Chief,
You are so right - it is work and I feel like I am a slave to it.
Maybe it is about time I quit my job or at least get a new boss!
Best Wishes
Bandit